don't worry, be happy
I have a lot going on in my head and in my life right now. It's almost the end of my swimming career (2 weeks till we leave for Champs!) and part of me is really excited because I have a feeling I'm going to be fassst at champs, but another part of me is a little sad because I really do enjoy swimming. At least I know I can contiune swimming without a team because it is one of the only sports you can play by yourself. I'm finishing up the end of my grad school applications and practically pissing myself because I'm so nervous about getting in. And next week is the start of my last semester as an undgraduate here at Salisbury University. I really want to live it up with no regrets and just have fun. I want to go out with the girls and get completely smashed just for the hell of it and then relive all the funny stories the next morning! I want to do things that I might be holding back on or not have the courage to do. Maybe travel somewhere? I don't know. I just realized that my time for total fun is now and I don't want to look back and have any regrets at all.
Adam came to visit this weekend! We've been through a LOT of ups and downs recently....and sometimes so far down that I get nervous..but I just have to remember that distance puts a strain on relationships like no other. We've made it this far and I seriously couldn't imagine anything getting in the way now. I think once swimming is over and Adam is more stable with his career goals we'll both be able to calm down. Whenever one of us gets stressed out we start thinking the worst of our relationship, okay I lied, whenever I get stressed out. It was absolutely fantastic to see him this weekend. I don't know if he knows how happy I really am that he came to see me. I was actually nervous to see him! haha I'm a dork...Maybe this is too much to say, but when I close my eyes and plan my future I can't see anyone making me as happy as he does. When we're together it's like everything makes sense. He calms me down. He's patient with me and allows me to go crazy and yet he still loves me after I've said or done something really mean to him. How can you let someone like that go? Sometimes I get so frusterated that he doesn't visit and sometimes I want the whole world to know how angry he can make me, but when I see the boy my heart melts and I can't help but smile.
oooooookay...I'm just going to stop there because I have a feeling if I keep it up I'm going to eventually run around in circles declaring my love for Adam.
Adam came to visit this weekend! We've been through a LOT of ups and downs recently....and sometimes so far down that I get nervous..but I just have to remember that distance puts a strain on relationships like no other. We've made it this far and I seriously couldn't imagine anything getting in the way now. I think once swimming is over and Adam is more stable with his career goals we'll both be able to calm down. Whenever one of us gets stressed out we start thinking the worst of our relationship, okay I lied, whenever I get stressed out. It was absolutely fantastic to see him this weekend. I don't know if he knows how happy I really am that he came to see me. I was actually nervous to see him! haha I'm a dork...Maybe this is too much to say, but when I close my eyes and plan my future I can't see anyone making me as happy as he does. When we're together it's like everything makes sense. He calms me down. He's patient with me and allows me to go crazy and yet he still loves me after I've said or done something really mean to him. How can you let someone like that go? Sometimes I get so frusterated that he doesn't visit and sometimes I want the whole world to know how angry he can make me, but when I see the boy my heart melts and I can't help but smile.
oooooookay...I'm just going to stop there because I have a feeling if I keep it up I'm going to eventually run around in circles declaring my love for Adam.