oh my goddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
this fic. wow. possibly one of the most dramatically compelling hikago fics i've ever read? (i missed it somehow before this, so i'm super-glad i was browsing random ppl's hikago bookmarks on pinboard for ones i hadn't read and saw it there, because WOW.)
it just, like. first, kudos on making such a wonderfully compelling OC. i usually don't get attached to them easily in fics (especially shipfics) but damn, you did it here.
but more than that, just, oh my GOD, like, hikaru/akira is one of my Forever Ships and possibly the top one ever, i mean, i am sure you understand, one of those ships it just hurts your heart sometimes to think about. AND YET in the middle of this fic, when akira demanded hikaru break up with shigemi and HIKARU DID IT, i hated them. not the characters, because gosh you did well here, like, everyone is so fleshed-out and complex, so even when i'm angry about characters' actions or decisions i can't hate them for it. but i hated the ship, hikaru/akira, right then. i was so angry about it, and when hikaru went back to his apartment and shigemi was all upset, i was just like, DO I EVEN WANT TO FINISH READING THIS FIC, I'M SO MAD, UGH I WANT HIM TO STAY WITH THIS CUTE KID, I AM ACTUALLY SO ANGRY AT MY OTP RIGHT NOW WHAT IS GOING ON.
and then of course i talked myself into continuing reading haha and you did so well as you continued to develop it, and by the end of the fic i was no longer angry at them hahaha. although i think i would have still been happy if hikaru had decided to be with shigemi, too. and that's what struck me about it the most, that the characters really came across as PEOPLE, people who are stuck in shitty complicated situations and have to make decisions, and sometimes people get hurt by your choices, but you have to make them anyway. and gosh that's a great feeling to walk away from any piece of fiction with, like, this feeling that i've immersed myself in a WORLD rather than just a contrived narrative.
anyway. loved the fic a lot, you got me emotionally worked up in all the best ways, thank you so much for writing and sharing this. <3
awwww, thank you so much for your kind, detailed comments!!! #^_^# this is like the absolute best kind of thing to get!! (and sorry for taking so long to respond...!)
i'm really glad you found the fic, and enjoyed it!! i'm really flattered. thankyou!!!
heh, yeah, OCs can be a mixed bag, so anytime i end up using one, i'm really grateful when people give 'em a chance. but yeahhhhh this one was tough as a hikaru/akira story, because they really go through hell and back and then swing back for one more go-through. even now, looking the story over again, i wonder if maybe hikaru made the wrong choice. ^_^;;; but, like you say, it's just about doing what you can in a sticky situation, and making the best of it, for all of them.
i'm very happy to have put you through the wringer!! (erp, maybe i should apologize?? but it's a good wringer kinda thing, i hope???)
thank YOU for your comments!! they totally made my day!! ♥♥
this fic. wow. possibly one of the most dramatically compelling hikago fics i've ever read? (i missed it somehow before this, so i'm super-glad i was browsing random ppl's hikago bookmarks on pinboard for ones i hadn't read and saw it there, because WOW.)
it just, like. first, kudos on making such a wonderfully compelling OC. i usually don't get attached to them easily in fics (especially shipfics) but damn, you did it here.
but more than that, just, oh my GOD, like, hikaru/akira is one of my Forever Ships and possibly the top one ever, i mean, i am sure you understand, one of those ships it just hurts your heart sometimes to think about. AND YET in the middle of this fic, when akira demanded hikaru break up with shigemi and HIKARU DID IT, i hated them. not the characters, because gosh you did well here, like, everyone is so fleshed-out and complex, so even when i'm angry about characters' actions or decisions i can't hate them for it. but i hated the ship, hikaru/akira, right then. i was so angry about it, and when hikaru went back to his apartment and shigemi was all upset, i was just like, DO I EVEN WANT TO FINISH READING THIS FIC, I'M SO MAD, UGH I WANT HIM TO STAY WITH THIS CUTE KID, I AM ACTUALLY SO ANGRY AT MY OTP RIGHT NOW WHAT IS GOING ON.
and then of course i talked myself into continuing reading haha and you did so well as you continued to develop it, and by the end of the fic i was no longer angry at them hahaha. although i think i would have still been happy if hikaru had decided to be with shigemi, too. and that's what struck me about it the most, that the characters really came across as PEOPLE, people who are stuck in shitty complicated situations and have to make decisions, and sometimes people get hurt by your choices, but you have to make them anyway. and gosh that's a great feeling to walk away from any piece of fiction with, like, this feeling that i've immersed myself in a WORLD rather than just a contrived narrative.
anyway. loved the fic a lot, you got me emotionally worked up in all the best ways, thank you so much for writing and sharing this. <3
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i'm really glad you found the fic, and enjoyed it!! i'm really flattered. thankyou!!!
heh, yeah, OCs can be a mixed bag, so anytime i end up using one, i'm really grateful when people give 'em a chance. but yeahhhhh this one was tough as a hikaru/akira story, because they really go through hell and back and then swing back for one more go-through. even now, looking the story over again, i wonder if maybe hikaru made the wrong choice. ^_^;;; but, like you say, it's just about doing what you can in a sticky situation, and making the best of it, for all of them.
i'm very happy to have put you through the wringer!! (erp, maybe i should apologize?? but it's a good wringer kinda thing, i hope???)
thank YOU for your comments!! they totally made my day!! ♥♥
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