a lifetime...
what am i doing...
sitting here thinking of you
counting the moments
lusting obsessing longing~no
my heart belongs to me...
what am i thinking...
you smile at me
from a distance
and i look up
as tears fall down my cheek
i realize you are not there~no
my tears belong to me...
why am i here
in some quiet place
where sex only exists with love
and insecurities never surface
and your touch is all i live for~no
my body belongs to me...
what is this jealousy...
you are for all eyes to see
jealousy that grips the soul
inside eating me alive~no
my jealousy belongs to me...
why am i afraid...
i need you
for you complete me
you exist for me~no
my fear belongs to me...
what is this ache inside...
you gently kiss me goodbye
you glance behind
as you walk away
you walk away alone~no
my pain belongs to me...
this special place inside me
that longs for only you
you whisper that you love me
but i fear i love you more~no
my love belongs to me...
i understand~yes...
i want your heart
i want your tears
i want your body
i want your jealousy
i want your fear
i want your pain
i want your love~ forever...
i desperately ache to be yours...
she quietly confides...
~bell~feb 14 2004
What is
What will be
What never will be
that is us
standing so close
but never to find the right time
the right place
inside is where "us" lives
in my book of dreams
which opens and closes
with each and every thought of us
I hand you my love...
everlasting
...love...
for you to take or leave
my lover from a past life..
... my best friend...
my reflection
keep me in your dreams
as I keep you
always something
to ask
precious~~~
.. reminder... to feel
and hope that
we never find silence
between us....
~Bell~(1-18-2003)
Melting
Emotions in motion (love)
the fabrication of unknowness
feeling what I cannot see
wanting things I do not know
loving him with invisible devotion
and dreaming of nothing less
standing on my expectations
forests of mind mountains of soul
accept all happiness from me
as time moves as a whole
you of my heart send me a little word
as i stand here helplessly (alone)
in such a silence I only know
whatever shall be discovered
holding your hand, caressingly
I will walk with you and grow
in our garden of rainbows
and listen to the voice of my heart
as if it is the only words I have ever heard
What I am feeling cannot be measured
( why is it love?)
standing in the sound of your eyes
sharing my silence with splendor
as all my dreams are opened
and silence is no more ( with you )
for your words wrap around me like a blanket
the magic of your mind inside
and the world in you to discover
sleeping under the utmost grace of the moon
and melting into you .... ~ Bell ~
sitting here thinking of you
counting the moments
lusting obsessing longing~no
my heart belongs to me...
what am i thinking...
you smile at me
from a distance
and i look up
as tears fall down my cheek
i realize you are not there~no
my tears belong to me...
why am i here
in some quiet place
where sex only exists with love
and insecurities never surface
and your touch is all i live for~no
my body belongs to me...
what is this jealousy...
you are for all eyes to see
jealousy that grips the soul
inside eating me alive~no
my jealousy belongs to me...
why am i afraid...
i need you
for you complete me
you exist for me~no
my fear belongs to me...
what is this ache inside...
you gently kiss me goodbye
you glance behind
as you walk away
you walk away alone~no
my pain belongs to me...
this special place inside me
that longs for only you
you whisper that you love me
but i fear i love you more~no
my love belongs to me...
i understand~yes...
i want your heart
i want your tears
i want your body
i want your jealousy
i want your fear
i want your pain
i want your love~ forever...
i desperately ache to be yours...
she quietly confides...
~bell~feb 14 2004
What is
What will be
What never will be
that is us
standing so close
but never to find the right time
the right place
inside is where "us" lives
in my book of dreams
which opens and closes
with each and every thought of us
I hand you my love...
everlasting
...love...
for you to take or leave
my lover from a past life..
... my best friend...
my reflection
keep me in your dreams
as I keep you
always something
to ask
precious~~~
.. reminder... to feel
and hope that
we never find silence
between us....
~Bell~(1-18-2003)
Melting
Emotions in motion (love)
the fabrication of unknowness
feeling what I cannot see
wanting things I do not know
loving him with invisible devotion
and dreaming of nothing less
standing on my expectations
forests of mind mountains of soul
accept all happiness from me
as time moves as a whole
you of my heart send me a little word
as i stand here helplessly (alone)
in such a silence I only know
whatever shall be discovered
holding your hand, caressingly
I will walk with you and grow
in our garden of rainbows
and listen to the voice of my heart
as if it is the only words I have ever heard
What I am feeling cannot be measured
( why is it love?)
standing in the sound of your eyes
sharing my silence with splendor
as all my dreams are opened
and silence is no more ( with you )
for your words wrap around me like a blanket
the magic of your mind inside
and the world in you to discover
sleeping under the utmost grace of the moon
and melting into you .... ~ Bell ~