Ramblin, ramblin, ramblin...
I just woke up - at 5: 30 am on Saturday morning. Gah, why did I wake up so damned early? yesterday was boring and I have the feeling today is going to be the same way. Only because I woke up so damned early and by noon, I'll be tired again and wanna sleep, which I'll end up doing on the couch and not getting anything done and not want to go to bed tonight. :-\ I used to have a very good male online buddy that I haven't spoken to in about 4 or 5 months now. I miss him so damned much. He just cut me off - no word or anything. He deleted his AOL name and email and hasn't contacted me since. I don't get it. We didn't have a fight, we never really fought. We would disagree about stuff, but we'd quickly get over it and move on. I wish every day he would contact me. This may sound crazy, but I liked him more than just as a friend. I know this is just the Internet, but he's so damned sweet and easy to talk to. I remember when we'd sit up all night long chatting and the convos got really intense. He told me once his real life buddies would call me his girlfriend to him. I met a couple of them and they'd call me that in chatrooms and such. I guess because him and I would spend so much time talking. We even had cute nicknames for each other, which just sort of came about casually in conversation. His was a Disney character. Mine was 'honey', which matched the Disney character. He'd tell me he loved me before signing off... I miss him like hell. I've tried everything I can think of to contact him, but it's been futile. I wish he would contact me. I'm worried about him. I hope he's ok. With my luck, he's married with 10 kids and his wife found out we were talking. Wouldn't that just be great? :-\ I don't even know why I'm obsessing over it so much. It's just an online friend. We never even talked on the phone. I know I should just stop thinking about it, but I can't. He's not the kind of person to just cut someone out of his life without a damned good reason. Maybe he had that reason, he just didn't tell me what it is. I know I miss him dearly.