Intellegence
I look better inverted in pictures. I must have no life. I dont consider myself fat anymore. I got a good look at the world and feel lucky about my weight.
I noticed everyone complains "Oh im to fat" "oh im to thin".. Who really cares. You all look fine. Your all just human, not some super being who has had 100 plastic surgrys on your left boob (Sorry Janet... cant resist your stupidity). But honestly the ones who actually need help with how they look, dont care. The ones who look fine, and actually good, cry the most about what they want.
What a great Fisrt entry I am posting huh.
People think they can sing. I think I can, but I bet I suck. My voice is rather to low, or to high. And my throat is crappy. But I continue anyways. I enjoy singing. In these days you dont need to sing, just show a boob (Janet), show some ass (Britney) or just act slutty (Christina A.), Cry about how stupid you are (Jessica), and act like a pathedic love fool who believe in world peace while sleeping with every guy in sight (all of the above). So who knows... If I start doing those things I might be famous. Eh but i'm not slutty, im not with a great ass, my left boob is to white, I dont like the thought of surgry, I dont believe in god, and I lost hope in what I use to call love, its all lust and mind games. Oh well I guess ill just join the rejects again, they seem fun.
Ive been crushed many times in my life. I think that is one reason I am a morbid person inside. I dont really seem to deathly lately, I think bruno (my boyfriend) is doing a 360* and making me go with him. Which I dont mind since i've been happy this past week. Maybe it's because that fake day called v-day comming up soon. I know something will go wrong like always. Im cursed for v-day and a few other dates too. But thats life, cant complain, at least I have over 300 good days dispite the cursed days.
I think my last relationship still continues to haunt me over and over on v-day. Since that is when me and this guy broke up, I have memories that bring me down. but i'm over him now. He proved to be a asshole, although he proved being a asshole a differnt way then most assholes. He was calm and collected when we talked the last time, made me feel like shit. But that is now the past. I wont talk to him anymore. And if one day I find myself infront of him. I will tell him that what i had inside for him is now old and molded, Whay scars were burnt into my heart are now fading memories, I will sacrifice nothing no longer and must free my soul to capture new ones. I will ensure him that he is my rain cloud which will go away and may come again some other day to defuse his anger to me. Odd thing, we didnt leave on any note, we just left, defused apart by hate, not our own, but we had a lesson in our minds, mine I did'nt learn right away, but understand forwards and backwards now.
Now any one who is reading this will rather wonder what the hell i am talking about, or understand completely the first time they read it. Now I dont try to be understood. But I do try to be reconized for being alive. I like knowing that others know I can love if i choose to love. I can Hate if I choose to hate. I can indeed be a black hearted bitch to many while being a sweet person at the same time. I like being known for my opinions, which for the most part are never tainted by others words.
I have many gay/bi friends. I love them all. I am neither Gay, nor bi, but I have no problems with what happend in gay/Bi relationships. Infact I encourage such things for some odd reason. I think my thing with gays/bis, is that the people I know whom are of that style, are very happy being how they are, very confortable, and very relaxed, layed back, open people who usually try not to lie. And if they do speak a lie, they usually dont want to hide it becuase they are such good people inside. I know not every one is nice, so I charish anyone who is nice. And in my life, My gay friends (and bi friends) happen to be the nicest. I think in part the way I act with them is why. Now like I said I am not gay, and am not really bi, But I will on occasion act crocked, and I am fine with that.
I am a open person. So if anyone doesnt like me, I dont give a flying Friik. Those people can go somewhere I will create for them.
I am not hiding from anyone. I accept mostly anyones messages on aim, although I refuse to talk to everyone becuase I dont like everyone at first. If you Message me, and I block you, to bad, i must have had a bad idea of how you are.
I love all of my friends and family, so if you fit into my friends/family catagory, Muah.
And to my boyfriend if you actually read any of this one day.. I love you, Live life how you want to die.
Muah babes
I noticed everyone complains "Oh im to fat" "oh im to thin".. Who really cares. You all look fine. Your all just human, not some super being who has had 100 plastic surgrys on your left boob (Sorry Janet... cant resist your stupidity). But honestly the ones who actually need help with how they look, dont care. The ones who look fine, and actually good, cry the most about what they want.
What a great Fisrt entry I am posting huh.
People think they can sing. I think I can, but I bet I suck. My voice is rather to low, or to high. And my throat is crappy. But I continue anyways. I enjoy singing. In these days you dont need to sing, just show a boob (Janet), show some ass (Britney) or just act slutty (Christina A.), Cry about how stupid you are (Jessica), and act like a pathedic love fool who believe in world peace while sleeping with every guy in sight (all of the above). So who knows... If I start doing those things I might be famous. Eh but i'm not slutty, im not with a great ass, my left boob is to white, I dont like the thought of surgry, I dont believe in god, and I lost hope in what I use to call love, its all lust and mind games. Oh well I guess ill just join the rejects again, they seem fun.
Ive been crushed many times in my life. I think that is one reason I am a morbid person inside. I dont really seem to deathly lately, I think bruno (my boyfriend) is doing a 360* and making me go with him. Which I dont mind since i've been happy this past week. Maybe it's because that fake day called v-day comming up soon. I know something will go wrong like always. Im cursed for v-day and a few other dates too. But thats life, cant complain, at least I have over 300 good days dispite the cursed days.
I think my last relationship still continues to haunt me over and over on v-day. Since that is when me and this guy broke up, I have memories that bring me down. but i'm over him now. He proved to be a asshole, although he proved being a asshole a differnt way then most assholes. He was calm and collected when we talked the last time, made me feel like shit. But that is now the past. I wont talk to him anymore. And if one day I find myself infront of him. I will tell him that what i had inside for him is now old and molded, Whay scars were burnt into my heart are now fading memories, I will sacrifice nothing no longer and must free my soul to capture new ones. I will ensure him that he is my rain cloud which will go away and may come again some other day to defuse his anger to me. Odd thing, we didnt leave on any note, we just left, defused apart by hate, not our own, but we had a lesson in our minds, mine I did'nt learn right away, but understand forwards and backwards now.
Now any one who is reading this will rather wonder what the hell i am talking about, or understand completely the first time they read it. Now I dont try to be understood. But I do try to be reconized for being alive. I like knowing that others know I can love if i choose to love. I can Hate if I choose to hate. I can indeed be a black hearted bitch to many while being a sweet person at the same time. I like being known for my opinions, which for the most part are never tainted by others words.
I have many gay/bi friends. I love them all. I am neither Gay, nor bi, but I have no problems with what happend in gay/Bi relationships. Infact I encourage such things for some odd reason. I think my thing with gays/bis, is that the people I know whom are of that style, are very happy being how they are, very confortable, and very relaxed, layed back, open people who usually try not to lie. And if they do speak a lie, they usually dont want to hide it becuase they are such good people inside. I know not every one is nice, so I charish anyone who is nice. And in my life, My gay friends (and bi friends) happen to be the nicest. I think in part the way I act with them is why. Now like I said I am not gay, and am not really bi, But I will on occasion act crocked, and I am fine with that.
I am a open person. So if anyone doesnt like me, I dont give a flying Friik. Those people can go somewhere I will create for them.
I am not hiding from anyone. I accept mostly anyones messages on aim, although I refuse to talk to everyone becuase I dont like everyone at first. If you Message me, and I block you, to bad, i must have had a bad idea of how you are.
I love all of my friends and family, so if you fit into my friends/family catagory, Muah.
And to my boyfriend if you actually read any of this one day.. I love you, Live life how you want to die.
Muah babes