My sh** has hit the fan as well as my mental health
So today I got a call at work, Alexis is having a meltdown and tells my mother's nurse that she is home alone. The nurse calls and yells at me and I lose it. Mom has been in the hospital and Alexis has trouble with staying with people unfamilar to her. So my side of the story is that the neighbors had been checking on her and were across the driveway if needed. Because of course Jerry's family cannot help with our children unless they need to make a show for other family members.
This is just not what I needed. Oh and not to mention they found an unidentified body a half mile from my house yesterday. So I was completely unnerved by that as it was. Ok, so next time Alexis will go to the sitter. No matter how much she does not want to. I feel like such a bad mom.
So on one hand I am trying to keep a roof over our heads and food in our mouths, but I am still excepted to be the perfect mother and daughter. On my job I am doing so good, and making headway. I was an acting supervisor this week, and did a good job.
So tonight I have dared Alexis to speak to me. I am having a big glass of wine and going to bed. I am seriously thinking about asking for Jerry to take over the girls and me leaving for a little while to regroup. I am really tried of being a mom and daughter. I just want something that is all mine. I really have not been on my own since I was 19 and I am truly burned out. I want out!!!!