Overload
So life is totally crazy, right now. Alexis told me this afternoon that I was not fun anymore, and I have to agree with her. My head, body, and heart are all going in different directions. My two oldest children will be going on vacation for two weeks. I will miss them but I will be glad to recharge my batteries and hopefully let my hair down a little.
I interviewed for a new position at work and had my interview last week and have yet to hear anything. I did the interview a little flabbergasted. But in the meantime I am getting some wonderful experience. I have been a SME (subject matter expert) for the last couple of weeks. I learned so much, and hopefully taught our new hires something. I am finding a strange mix of excitement and fear at my job. Fear of not performing and the possibility of being successful. My girls tell me that my job is stressing them out...LOL!! In April I was number 3 on the contract, then was near the bottom in the month of May. That is the adventure of sales I guess. Meanwhile the contract I had been working on left our company, it was very sad to see many of my friends leave. The ones who came over to my contract, about half of them left during training.
Spiritually I feel peaceful. I have not felt that way in a long time. I guess with age, wisdom does come. I have finally been able to let go of some of the stuff at my old church. I have a friend that has a unique perspective on life and she makes me see things in a different way, and I am grateful for that. I have also learned that being around pettiness is not worth my time and certainly not worth my energy.
On a lighter note I am typing this with my 19 month old daughter sleeping on my lap, so at this moment life is calm and good.
Click to viewA video clip that appeals to me right now. I know the way she feels in this song.