good morning.
-BEST FRIENDS-
Hopefully this next week i will get to see my girls alot seeign as thought hey all leave in about 2 weeks. aghr its going to suck. I also plan on partying... alot. since i really havent gotten the chance to. Not that im complaining about it because it has been my hcoice, i just think it will be nice to relax and get drunk with the girls. i miss kerri.
[08:56] ThreeXaLady129: whats with girls posin in their bathing suits?
[08:56] ThreeXaLady129: shit im gonna start doing that
[08:56] ThreeXaLady129: just to get back at them
[08:58] xxcandyheartzxx: haahahhahahahaha
[08:58] xxcandyheartzxx: u show them
^^^^^^^^^^ that comment just made me laugh so hard. God do i miss her. She comes home on saturday night at 9:30. The drinks will start at 9:31. <3
-LOVE-
I'm at work. I have a ton of stuff to do. But i havent wrote in a while and after having the drive to work that i had today, i realized that i probably should.
The ride to work was pretty.... upseting? Not for me but for linda. It turns out the guy that she has had her heart set on for the past 2 years got engaged to a different girl (his cousin) over seas. she was a mess all morning. The whole ride to work was practically silent except for random comment that she would make asking why he did what he has done. This made me think.
Friday night, Johns bestfriends cornered me in the kitchen and asked me why i treated him the way i do. Honestly, i have not be able to get this off of my mind. I just keep playing the clip over and over in my head. "why do you make him as upset as you do? why do you get so angry with him? why doyou treat him like shit? what does he do to deserve this?" granted i was under the influence, i still was speechless. ididnt know how to respond to all of this. it truely opened my eyes. i have this amazing guy in front of me who i love so much its rediculous, and as everyone else sees it, all ido is treat him like shit. Sure there are going to be fights, im not saying that there arent. But things recently have been good. And after seeingt linda loose the guy she loves today. It made me realize that i dont want to do anythign to jeprodize this relationship. He makes me so happy. And things ar ebetter then ever. I have been making a big deal out of him leaving for a week for no reason. I trust him. I know he wouldnt do anythign intentionally to hurt me and thats why hes my favorite. I guess i can just hope for the best. I hope he doesnt loose all his money. and i hope he has a great time. and i hope he has fun with the boys and i hope he gets comepletely hammer at least one of the nights that hes out there. and i will be there on sunday at the airport waiting to pick him up and waiting to get my kisses that i will have been lacking for the past week. so FYI john michael. you better be ready to cuddle and give me kisses because you will have alot of making up to do for the past week.
-FAMILY-
i saw the baby yesterday. shes huge. she looks nothing like a baby anymore. shes super tall, her hair is longer then mine and she is soo skinny with only a few cute little freckles on her face. such a cute little girl (my aunt always said that she looks just like me. haha. for the frist time ever, she brought up the fact that she remembered living with us. My mom an di always though that she had an idea that she was close with us but never new the attachment. I mean she went from waking up every morning to us and spending months at a time living with us to now only seeing us every other month for an hour or so. I guess she now thinks that the reason she doesnt stay with us is because my mom works all the time? at least thats what she told me? werid since mymom only works 8 hours a week.
-SCHOOL/WORK-
work this year is well... paying the bills? that i dont have. last year i was pretty good about saving money but this year i am spenidng wayyy to much i have NOTHIGN saved i mean.. zero dollars because i just keep buying clothes. which really doesnt make sence because i got out maybe one a week when i should look cute. the other days i am at work or with john and he could care less how i look so why do i need all these clothes? So yeah i need ot start saving. I really wantto go on vacation too. but a vacation other then the one with my parents.
I met with my advisor last week. i was pretty nervous baout this year but classes seem to be goign good. i am commuting my first term and then most likely gettting an aparemtns around winter time. so that will be pretty sweet.
ok ive been at work 2 hours and have gotten nothign done.. so i better start working.
<3
Hopefully this next week i will get to see my girls alot seeign as thought hey all leave in about 2 weeks. aghr its going to suck. I also plan on partying... alot. since i really havent gotten the chance to. Not that im complaining about it because it has been my hcoice, i just think it will be nice to relax and get drunk with the girls. i miss kerri.
[08:56] ThreeXaLady129: whats with girls posin in their bathing suits?
[08:56] ThreeXaLady129: shit im gonna start doing that
[08:56] ThreeXaLady129: just to get back at them
[08:58] xxcandyheartzxx: haahahhahahahaha
[08:58] xxcandyheartzxx: u show them
^^^^^^^^^^ that comment just made me laugh so hard. God do i miss her. She comes home on saturday night at 9:30. The drinks will start at 9:31. <3
-LOVE-
I'm at work. I have a ton of stuff to do. But i havent wrote in a while and after having the drive to work that i had today, i realized that i probably should.
The ride to work was pretty.... upseting? Not for me but for linda. It turns out the guy that she has had her heart set on for the past 2 years got engaged to a different girl (his cousin) over seas. she was a mess all morning. The whole ride to work was practically silent except for random comment that she would make asking why he did what he has done. This made me think.
Friday night, Johns bestfriends cornered me in the kitchen and asked me why i treated him the way i do. Honestly, i have not be able to get this off of my mind. I just keep playing the clip over and over in my head. "why do you make him as upset as you do? why do you get so angry with him? why doyou treat him like shit? what does he do to deserve this?" granted i was under the influence, i still was speechless. ididnt know how to respond to all of this. it truely opened my eyes. i have this amazing guy in front of me who i love so much its rediculous, and as everyone else sees it, all ido is treat him like shit. Sure there are going to be fights, im not saying that there arent. But things recently have been good. And after seeingt linda loose the guy she loves today. It made me realize that i dont want to do anythign to jeprodize this relationship. He makes me so happy. And things ar ebetter then ever. I have been making a big deal out of him leaving for a week for no reason. I trust him. I know he wouldnt do anythign intentionally to hurt me and thats why hes my favorite. I guess i can just hope for the best. I hope he doesnt loose all his money. and i hope he has a great time. and i hope he has fun with the boys and i hope he gets comepletely hammer at least one of the nights that hes out there. and i will be there on sunday at the airport waiting to pick him up and waiting to get my kisses that i will have been lacking for the past week. so FYI john michael. you better be ready to cuddle and give me kisses because you will have alot of making up to do for the past week.
-FAMILY-
i saw the baby yesterday. shes huge. she looks nothing like a baby anymore. shes super tall, her hair is longer then mine and she is soo skinny with only a few cute little freckles on her face. such a cute little girl (my aunt always said that she looks just like me. haha. for the frist time ever, she brought up the fact that she remembered living with us. My mom an di always though that she had an idea that she was close with us but never new the attachment. I mean she went from waking up every morning to us and spending months at a time living with us to now only seeing us every other month for an hour or so. I guess she now thinks that the reason she doesnt stay with us is because my mom works all the time? at least thats what she told me? werid since mymom only works 8 hours a week.
-SCHOOL/WORK-
work this year is well... paying the bills? that i dont have. last year i was pretty good about saving money but this year i am spenidng wayyy to much i have NOTHIGN saved i mean.. zero dollars because i just keep buying clothes. which really doesnt make sence because i got out maybe one a week when i should look cute. the other days i am at work or with john and he could care less how i look so why do i need all these clothes? So yeah i need ot start saving. I really wantto go on vacation too. but a vacation other then the one with my parents.
I met with my advisor last week. i was pretty nervous baout this year but classes seem to be goign good. i am commuting my first term and then most likely gettting an aparemtns around winter time. so that will be pretty sweet.
ok ive been at work 2 hours and have gotten nothign done.. so i better start working.
<3