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I want to say thank you.
Thank you for showing me your colors.
While the realization is hard, atleast it came. You don't care about me. You care about yourself and what is good for you. Nobody has ever treated me the way that you have, and I'm done letting you. If this is how you want to be, you can watch me fade away. I will always be here for you, as a friend, but after the past week I don't know if I can forget the feeling of nothingness that you have made me feel.
You know I have trouble trusting, especially guys, and you're doing what every other guy I've tried anything with has done. If I'm not what you need, then so be it. Don't try to keep me within reach though.
I'm not something you can pick up and set down at your own free will, I'm a person with feelings.
While, yes, I care about you, I have to care about me too. I have given you everything, loved you unconditionally, and changed my life around for you. It's obviously not good enough anymore, and that's something I just have to deal with.
The sad thing is, I thought you loved me just as much. The past week has showed me that you don't, because if you did, you wouldn't allow yourself to do this to me.
So basically, thank you. Thank you for making me stronger. Thank you for showing me how good love *could* be. And finally, thank you for not pretending anymore...
Thank you for showing me your colors.
While the realization is hard, atleast it came. You don't care about me. You care about yourself and what is good for you. Nobody has ever treated me the way that you have, and I'm done letting you. If this is how you want to be, you can watch me fade away. I will always be here for you, as a friend, but after the past week I don't know if I can forget the feeling of nothingness that you have made me feel.
You know I have trouble trusting, especially guys, and you're doing what every other guy I've tried anything with has done. If I'm not what you need, then so be it. Don't try to keep me within reach though.
I'm not something you can pick up and set down at your own free will, I'm a person with feelings.
While, yes, I care about you, I have to care about me too. I have given you everything, loved you unconditionally, and changed my life around for you. It's obviously not good enough anymore, and that's something I just have to deal with.
The sad thing is, I thought you loved me just as much. The past week has showed me that you don't, because if you did, you wouldn't allow yourself to do this to me.
So basically, thank you. Thank you for making me stronger. Thank you for showing me how good love *could* be. And finally, thank you for not pretending anymore...