Random Connor-centric Angel ramblings
"Jasmine."
"Night blooming."
"Like us."
- Dru and Angelus, I Only Have Eyes For You
"Jasmine. It blooms at night. I remember what that was like."
- Darla, The Trial
Jasmine is connected specifically to Angelus' line of vampires.
You know, it really makes sense that Connor's child, Angel and Darla's grandchild, be named Jasmine.
"That fragrance... It's lovely. What is it?"
"Must be the jasmine."
"Oh, night blooming. So beautiful, so lonely... like you."
- Jasmine and Angel, Shiny Happy People
And wow, The Trial is just so amazing. And this is where we meet the version of Darla that we see in Offspring, willing to die to save her son, and the Darla we see in Inside Out, regretful of her past misdeeds and yearning to save Connor, while still having that sharp Darla edge.
Darla's like a rapier. Elegant and light but still very deadly.
And Home isn't the first time that Angel decided he had to kill someone he cared about to save them. He really is doomed. Or maybe it was just everything connected to Darla. She said once that Connor was the one good thing they did. And it was the fact that he was their son that doomed him. That inspired Holtz (who we first hear of second season) to steal Connor and poison him.
Nothing that Angel loves is allowed to thrive.
Maybe because he believes himself doomed. He calls himself damned in Darla ("You damned me!"). And even then, I think his default was to assume that the fires were still waiting. Shanshu was his hope for a human life, but I don't think he ever assumed that it came with a ticket to heaven.
Whenever Angel's happy, it means that something's about to come make him miserable. And he doesn't get to keep anything. Buffy has had her friends to hold onto. She's pushed them away, but never to the extent that Angel has. And Buffy has Dawn. She gets to keep the blood connection and the friend connection alive.
I always wanted Buffy to have a happy ending. And I always believed that she could make it. For one thing, the premise of the show kinda requires it. It's all about standing up and triumphing.
But Angel lost his first Victim of the Week. He lost Darla, several times. Angel is strongest in the moments when Angel is lost, it seems.
I don't know if Angel will end on an up note. Don't know if it can. It's all about repeating patterns, falling prey to the beast within, whatever form that takes.
From Amends:
Angel: "I'm weak. I've never been anything else. It's not the demon in me that needs killing, Buffy. It's the man."
Buffy: "You're weak. Everybody is. Everybody fails."
One of the key themes of Angel, right there. Everybody fails. There are no innocents.
Angel: "Am I a thing worth saving, huh? Am I a righteous man?"
Angel: "Buffy, please. Just this once... let me be strong."
Buffy: "Strong is fighting! It's hard, and it's painful, and it's every day. It's what we have to do. And we can do it together."
I'm thinking that Angel listened to most of that and just skipped the last sentence.
From Connor in Peace Out:
"And it is better. Not harsh and cruel, the way that Angel likes it so he has a reason to fight. Cause, you know, that's what he's about. Him and the others. Finding reasons to fight. Like that's what gives their lives any meaning. The only damn thing! I'm not like them. I just, I want to stop. I want to stop fighting. I just want to rest. God, I want to rest. But I can't. It's not working, Cordy. I tried. I tried to believe. I wanted it. I went along with the flow. Jasmine, she's... she's bringing peace to everyone, purging all of their hate and anger. But not me. Not me! I know she's a lie. Jasmine. My whole life's been built on them. I just, I guess I thought this one was better than the others."
Strong is fighting. And Connor's tired of trying to be strong. He just wants to rest.
He has so much of his mother in him. He favors her in looks. Also, the ability and urge to jump off buildings.
And something interesting to think about for this season -
"You don't kill humans."
"You don't qualify."
- Holland and Angel, Reunion
"Night blooming."
"Like us."
- Dru and Angelus, I Only Have Eyes For You
"Jasmine. It blooms at night. I remember what that was like."
- Darla, The Trial
Jasmine is connected specifically to Angelus' line of vampires.
You know, it really makes sense that Connor's child, Angel and Darla's grandchild, be named Jasmine.
"That fragrance... It's lovely. What is it?"
"Must be the jasmine."
"Oh, night blooming. So beautiful, so lonely... like you."
- Jasmine and Angel, Shiny Happy People
And wow, The Trial is just so amazing. And this is where we meet the version of Darla that we see in Offspring, willing to die to save her son, and the Darla we see in Inside Out, regretful of her past misdeeds and yearning to save Connor, while still having that sharp Darla edge.
Darla's like a rapier. Elegant and light but still very deadly.
And Home isn't the first time that Angel decided he had to kill someone he cared about to save them. He really is doomed. Or maybe it was just everything connected to Darla. She said once that Connor was the one good thing they did. And it was the fact that he was their son that doomed him. That inspired Holtz (who we first hear of second season) to steal Connor and poison him.
Nothing that Angel loves is allowed to thrive.
Maybe because he believes himself doomed. He calls himself damned in Darla ("You damned me!"). And even then, I think his default was to assume that the fires were still waiting. Shanshu was his hope for a human life, but I don't think he ever assumed that it came with a ticket to heaven.
Whenever Angel's happy, it means that something's about to come make him miserable. And he doesn't get to keep anything. Buffy has had her friends to hold onto. She's pushed them away, but never to the extent that Angel has. And Buffy has Dawn. She gets to keep the blood connection and the friend connection alive.
I always wanted Buffy to have a happy ending. And I always believed that she could make it. For one thing, the premise of the show kinda requires it. It's all about standing up and triumphing.
But Angel lost his first Victim of the Week. He lost Darla, several times. Angel is strongest in the moments when Angel is lost, it seems.
I don't know if Angel will end on an up note. Don't know if it can. It's all about repeating patterns, falling prey to the beast within, whatever form that takes.
From Amends:
Angel: "I'm weak. I've never been anything else. It's not the demon in me that needs killing, Buffy. It's the man."
Buffy: "You're weak. Everybody is. Everybody fails."
One of the key themes of Angel, right there. Everybody fails. There are no innocents.
Angel: "Am I a thing worth saving, huh? Am I a righteous man?"
Angel: "Buffy, please. Just this once... let me be strong."
Buffy: "Strong is fighting! It's hard, and it's painful, and it's every day. It's what we have to do. And we can do it together."
I'm thinking that Angel listened to most of that and just skipped the last sentence.
From Connor in Peace Out:
"And it is better. Not harsh and cruel, the way that Angel likes it so he has a reason to fight. Cause, you know, that's what he's about. Him and the others. Finding reasons to fight. Like that's what gives their lives any meaning. The only damn thing! I'm not like them. I just, I want to stop. I want to stop fighting. I just want to rest. God, I want to rest. But I can't. It's not working, Cordy. I tried. I tried to believe. I wanted it. I went along with the flow. Jasmine, she's... she's bringing peace to everyone, purging all of their hate and anger. But not me. Not me! I know she's a lie. Jasmine. My whole life's been built on them. I just, I guess I thought this one was better than the others."
Strong is fighting. And Connor's tired of trying to be strong. He just wants to rest.
He has so much of his mother in him. He favors her in looks. Also, the ability and urge to jump off buildings.
And something interesting to think about for this season -
"You don't kill humans."
"You don't qualify."
- Holland and Angel, Reunion