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My head is pounding, I can feel my heart in my chest, it's hard to take a deep breath, it's like an anxiety attack, but it's been going on for an hour now, I don't know what to do, I'm kind of scared, I took some meds, but it's not working, scary as hell, I'm craving a cigarette which is just absurd, I haven't had one in over a year, and I've had a total of what, five in my life? I don't want to be home, but I have no where to go, so much going through my head, I want to disappear, yet I don't want to leave anyone, I should be happy, but I'm preventing myself from being so, I need a vacation or a break or a life changing event, I need something, please, I'm scared...