idiot
So I feel like a complete and utter idiot now.
Maybe I just need to stop putting so much darn stock into people. Or maybe I need to start thinking like everyone else and not be concerned about a celebrity as a human being. *shrugs* Either way I'm screwed.
Why do I have to be such a jealous person? I mean...I know it's human nature, but am I more jealous than most? I feel like I am at times, but I try not to let that take over my decisions and actions, but am I fooling myself into thinking I don't?
Why is this STUPID internet thing getting to me so badly? I have never even MET Jeff Timmons, yet I'm all concerned that I look like an immature little child to him. For all I know, he could be an asshole. I know that's not the case, but yeah...I'm just saying. Why do I have to care so much about what people that I haven't even MET think about me?
I have a tendancy to be obsessive. I know this, and I battle every day not to let myself, but am I losing the battle again? *le sigh*
I just want to go away, start this new job, and not get online for a while...but I can't do that. Because it will drive me crazy wondering what I'm missing.
I hate life and it's double edged swords damnit.
Maybe I just need to stop putting so much darn stock into people. Or maybe I need to start thinking like everyone else and not be concerned about a celebrity as a human being. *shrugs* Either way I'm screwed.
Why do I have to be such a jealous person? I mean...I know it's human nature, but am I more jealous than most? I feel like I am at times, but I try not to let that take over my decisions and actions, but am I fooling myself into thinking I don't?
Why is this STUPID internet thing getting to me so badly? I have never even MET Jeff Timmons, yet I'm all concerned that I look like an immature little child to him. For all I know, he could be an asshole. I know that's not the case, but yeah...I'm just saying. Why do I have to care so much about what people that I haven't even MET think about me?
I have a tendancy to be obsessive. I know this, and I battle every day not to let myself, but am I losing the battle again? *le sigh*
I just want to go away, start this new job, and not get online for a while...but I can't do that. Because it will drive me crazy wondering what I'm missing.
I hate life and it's double edged swords damnit.