eyeballs
Good news: I MADE IT THROUGH THE WEEK \o/
Bad news: Oh gosh, oh boy. Remember how I said that my eye was turning red from tiredness?
It's not tiredness.
It's infected.
Non-gross simple explanation: I'm on drugs for it and I should be better by Wednesday. It stings and hurts and is annoying and I'm really scared every time I think about it, and I need to be taking proper care of it and not reading lots/watching a lot of tv/being on the computer a lot.
...I KNOW RIGHT WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO.
The more complicated, accurate description:
What i have is called a corneal ulcer, plus a few ruptured blood vessels in the same area because I've been rubbing it out of misery.
Basically it's a sore, on my eye, that is painful and if we hadn't caught it there would have been surgery needed to correct potential blindness.
No, I am not kidding.
Before you are really alarmed; IT IS NOT LIFE-THREATENING, I have not been hospitalized, I do not need surgery, all I've needed are expensive eye drops ( I pushed us over our insurance limit so now insurance will pay for things :D) to be used for a few days because really, it's healing up kind of on its own. The doctor, after saying "well it's not as bad as it could have been", didn't seem really alarmed.
I think.
I'm scared to death, honestly, because today it's started to hurt more, it feels dry and irritable, and so I put a warm compress on it to try and soothe it, as I've read that you should do. But when i took it off it wasn't better, now there is a blurry blind spot in my vision.
Mom called the doctor in a panic. Be relieved: I am not going blind. I soaked the scab off the ulcer and now the blurry blind spot I see is actually the ulcer itself, blocking my vision. It should clear up, I'm told, but now I'm under instructions to use the drops a lot more frequently, no more relieving compresses, and less reading/screen time.
Also, unrelated to the compress-complication, this little bugger is going to leave a scar on my eyeball for roughly six months.
YOU SEE WHY THIS IS GROSS AND WHY I AM SO FREAKED OUT.
I'm not going to go blind, we caught it in time, and maybe I'm making a bigger deal out of this than I should be but eye-illnesses have always grossed me out and the fact that I was so close to having an ENORMOUS problem is frightening. More than frightening. Excuse my french, It's scared the shit out of me.
It's not entirely because of my contacts that caused this, though. It's either my contact lenses (unlikely because I JUST changed them when the problem first popped up two weeks ago - I wore glasses for a week after that until the redness faded completely, then I popped my new contacts in, and the Ulcer Struck Back tenfold. I am now going to wear my glasses for the next week even though I have--had? I don't know where I stand now--permission to pop them back in on Monday/Tuesday. <--see, not really that long of a time before I'm okay, we're going to be okay.), my contact lens solution (also brand new minus two weeks), or my contact lens case (...several months old...). I have been wearing my glasses since I first noticed the problem started so REALLY, it's not like I've been aggravating this more than necessary. ...beyond rubbing at my eye and rupturing blood vessels...
Yeah. So. See y'all on Wednesday or in little increments of time until then. Probably not much, I need to save my reading-time for studying for finals.
Please give me sympathy and tell me this is not one of the most grossest things ever and that it just runs up and down your spine the wrong way to think that, also, if we hadn't caught this, it could have been a FLESH-EATING BACTERIA THAT WOULD HAVE EATEN MY EYE OUT.
AGAIN. NOT KIDDING.
This is sooooooo gross. I'm so scared but it's going to be okay. "Fear not for I am with you."
Uuuuuuuuuuuuugh.
Yeah. See you Wednesday when it's better, hopefully, barring complications.
(I might, also, be considering naming this ulcer Uther. Because Uther is insanely frustrating and recurring and makes people mad and, also, Ulcer? Uther? Difference of TWO LETTERS.
...that makes me Arthur because I am determined to overcome this/BE BETTER THAN THE ULCER. ...who wants to be my Merlin? :( )
Bad news: Oh gosh, oh boy. Remember how I said that my eye was turning red from tiredness?
It's not tiredness.
It's infected.
Non-gross simple explanation: I'm on drugs for it and I should be better by Wednesday. It stings and hurts and is annoying and I'm really scared every time I think about it, and I need to be taking proper care of it and not reading lots/watching a lot of tv/being on the computer a lot.
...I KNOW RIGHT WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO.
The more complicated, accurate description:
What i have is called a corneal ulcer, plus a few ruptured blood vessels in the same area because I've been rubbing it out of misery.
Basically it's a sore, on my eye, that is painful and if we hadn't caught it there would have been surgery needed to correct potential blindness.
No, I am not kidding.
Before you are really alarmed; IT IS NOT LIFE-THREATENING, I have not been hospitalized, I do not need surgery, all I've needed are expensive eye drops ( I pushed us over our insurance limit so now insurance will pay for things :D) to be used for a few days because really, it's healing up kind of on its own. The doctor, after saying "well it's not as bad as it could have been", didn't seem really alarmed.
I think.
I'm scared to death, honestly, because today it's started to hurt more, it feels dry and irritable, and so I put a warm compress on it to try and soothe it, as I've read that you should do. But when i took it off it wasn't better, now there is a blurry blind spot in my vision.
Mom called the doctor in a panic. Be relieved: I am not going blind. I soaked the scab off the ulcer and now the blurry blind spot I see is actually the ulcer itself, blocking my vision. It should clear up, I'm told, but now I'm under instructions to use the drops a lot more frequently, no more relieving compresses, and less reading/screen time.
Also, unrelated to the compress-complication, this little bugger is going to leave a scar on my eyeball for roughly six months.
YOU SEE WHY THIS IS GROSS AND WHY I AM SO FREAKED OUT.
I'm not going to go blind, we caught it in time, and maybe I'm making a bigger deal out of this than I should be but eye-illnesses have always grossed me out and the fact that I was so close to having an ENORMOUS problem is frightening. More than frightening. Excuse my french, It's scared the shit out of me.
It's not entirely because of my contacts that caused this, though. It's either my contact lenses (unlikely because I JUST changed them when the problem first popped up two weeks ago - I wore glasses for a week after that until the redness faded completely, then I popped my new contacts in, and the Ulcer Struck Back tenfold. I am now going to wear my glasses for the next week even though I have--had? I don't know where I stand now--permission to pop them back in on Monday/Tuesday. <--see, not really that long of a time before I'm okay, we're going to be okay.), my contact lens solution (also brand new minus two weeks), or my contact lens case (...several months old...). I have been wearing my glasses since I first noticed the problem started so REALLY, it's not like I've been aggravating this more than necessary. ...beyond rubbing at my eye and rupturing blood vessels...
Yeah. So. See y'all on Wednesday or in little increments of time until then. Probably not much, I need to save my reading-time for studying for finals.
Please give me sympathy and tell me this is not one of the most grossest things ever and that it just runs up and down your spine the wrong way to think that, also, if we hadn't caught this, it could have been a FLESH-EATING BACTERIA THAT WOULD HAVE EATEN MY EYE OUT.
AGAIN. NOT KIDDING.
This is sooooooo gross. I'm so scared but it's going to be okay. "Fear not for I am with you."
Uuuuuuuuuuuuugh.
Yeah. See you Wednesday when it's better, hopefully, barring complications.
(I might, also, be considering naming this ulcer Uther. Because Uther is insanely frustrating and recurring and makes people mad and, also, Ulcer? Uther? Difference of TWO LETTERS.
...that makes me Arthur because I am determined to overcome this/BE BETTER THAN THE ULCER. ...who wants to be my Merlin? :( )