Oct 05, 2008 18:51
At work today, I was talking to this other girl about guys (because honestly, what else do girls talk about? XDDD) and she happens to like black guys. (Psst! She's white.) And she said that where she's from, all the black guys like "girls like her" who are more curvy. And just as I was about to agree with her, she said, "But here, I see all the hot black guys with girls like you."
(Here I'm thinking, 'Like me? What does that mean??')
And she says, "Tiny, skinny little girls like you." She didn't say this in a mean way at all, but...
WTF?!
Since when was I considered "tiny and skinny?"
Don't answer that.
Because it's seriously weird to me. I don't get it.
When I look in the mirror, I think I'm okay. I'm average. I don't think I'm ugly, face- or body-wise. I know I'm not fat, but I'm not very lean either.
So most of the time, I feel relatively good about myself.
And then when I see pictures or videos, all I can think is, Oh my God, I look like THAT?! And it weirds me out because there's such a different image. When I see what other people see (or what I think other people see), I really don't understand why people always tell me I'm so pretty or that I don't need to lose weight.
Because looking at the hard evidence, I'm not that stunning. There are plenty of girls who have prettier faces and much more appealing bodies than I have.
Whatever. I guess I just have a different image of what's beautiful and what's not.
I'll never understand.
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