Not starting the day off right
I got into an arguement with Matt this morning. Not what I needed or wanted. He took yesterday off to take care of his car which is fine because he can trade a day in and work on Friday, which he usually has off. ok, so his car is in the shop getting fixed, that part taken care of. I have to take him to work, which in total is a 1/2 hr added on to my morning, fine. I jump out of bed and start getting ready in the bathroom and come back out and he is still in bed! I said you better get up or we are both going to be late. He starts going on about how he thinks he is going to call in again today!! So of course I start yelling about how he can't keep missing work because we need the money, HELLO, your car is in the shop!! So he gets up all gumpy and mopping around and is still contemplating not going to work. I lost it, I know it is bad and I should be able to control my anger a bit better, but COME ON!! I yelled that if he wasn't going to go to work then he needs to be out of the house when I get home. Then I said something I regret, I feel terrible about it now. I screamed at him to stop being a dissapointment to this family. he said "Sorry for dissapointing you" and I said "Me too." That was the last thing we said to each other. I dropped him off at work.
He has been seeing this counselor, he likes her and I am glad that he is actually going in and talking with someone, but I think he needs meds, antidepressents. The counselor he is seeing is not one that can perscribe anything. I want him to switch counselors but he doesn't want to. I haven't pushed it becasue I know I should be happy that he is going to someone. He wants me to go to his couselor with him, why should I have to go? She hasn't asked that I come in too. I almost want to go in to see what line of bullshit he is telling this women, they have been going over his anger issues, UM...he is depressed, when he gets deppressed it is like the domino effect, his back will start hurting, he misses work, I get mad, he gets angry. I think she should start at the deppression, not the anger.
Anyway, so my day is shot to shit now, at least I am the only one in the office.
He has been seeing this counselor, he likes her and I am glad that he is actually going in and talking with someone, but I think he needs meds, antidepressents. The counselor he is seeing is not one that can perscribe anything. I want him to switch counselors but he doesn't want to. I haven't pushed it becasue I know I should be happy that he is going to someone. He wants me to go to his couselor with him, why should I have to go? She hasn't asked that I come in too. I almost want to go in to see what line of bullshit he is telling this women, they have been going over his anger issues, UM...he is depressed, when he gets deppressed it is like the domino effect, his back will start hurting, he misses work, I get mad, he gets angry. I think she should start at the deppression, not the anger.
Anyway, so my day is shot to shit now, at least I am the only one in the office.