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Even though my friends don't update anymore, I still do. I'm so incredibly stressed out right now! I hate it! I've been working on my papers for weeks so when it came down to their due date, I would have them done far enough in advance that I wouldn't be stressing about them. Well that was total bollocks. (I have this urge to watch Wimbledon now hehehe) I'm saying screw my Youth Min Paper. I have 17 pages. It's supposed to be between 20 and 25 excluding addendums. Well, it's 17 excluding that stuff 21 if it has all that stuff. I asked my mom to review it and tell me what stuff I should clarify, any questions she had that I could answer. Does she do that? NO! The one thing I asked her to do and she doesn't do that! She just corrects my grammer. GRRR! STOP THAT MOTHER! I'm just really frustrated with that.
Beyond that, I have to finish this Fanny Paper today. I have 9 out of 20. But I do have a lot yet to write about for that. :) But I have to write it this afternoon in about an hour and half since I have this conservative conference to go to tonight and all day tomorrow. I'm kinda looking forward to it. I have alot of work to do but i know if i were here I wouldn't do my work anyway. So atleast I'll be productive with my time. I'm learning politics. fun! Then tomorrow after that I have to drive over to church to be at the youth sunday stuff. I'm really worried about that because they have not practiced and I don't think the adults that will be there will really help them. ugh! I just don't know what to do! I can't be a full time student and work full time with the youth ministry.
Whatelse? Last night I was so frustrated with praise team. I just want to run away right now! That's all. Run away maybe to Iraq, curl up in Ben's sleeping bag and cry. I wish he were here to hold me when i cry. I haven't cried because I don't have time. Kinda like Elena the other week, I know I just need to cry and get all this stress out but I just cant. AH! I really miss Ben right now. It's getting worse and worse the closer to the end of school comes. Once school is done with I only have about 4 months until he comes home.And the first month, almost 2 is me working at my internship which is going to be interesting. I have to sign this paper that says I will not knowngly participate in sin (Basically that's what it says). It makes me laugh. Sin includes, sexual, greed, drunkenness,swindleing and more but those are the 4 that caught my attention. I have a meeting with them next week about my internship. AHH! But I need a drink now to get me through these last few weeks. It was only a year ago that I was not stressed at the end of the semester. It was only a year ago that Gary cheated on me and I met adam and really had fun in England. I want to be there so bad right now but I know I can't. Next year at this time I better not be stressed as much as I am now. I'll be finishing up my Senior Project. I'll be ready to graduate. AH! I just want out of this right now!
I want to be home right now with Gracie! We need those massages now! I dont know if I can wait until our birthdays for that babe! lol. This is my schedule for the next few weeks:
today: Conservative conference
Saturday: Conservative Conference and Youth Sunday practice
Sunday: Youth Sunday I'm preaching at 11 at the tradiational service which i need to work on that sermon tomorrow night hopefully
Monday: New Testament Test
Tuesday: Youth Ministry Paper is due
Wednesday: Fanny Crosby Spirituality is due
Thursday: Meeting with LCBC
Friday: Discipline Paper
Saturday: WOrking 8 hours but beyond that nothing! working on my sermon
Sunday: Preaching
Monday: Sermon Due and Making of Ministry Task Force Meeting at Church.
Tuesday: Daystar Banquet and my last Youth Ministry Class!
Wednesday: Field Experience paper due
Thursday: working and praise team.
Friday-Sunday District Retreat
Monday the 2nd: Theology of Ministry Class Exam and it's my last day of classes
Tuesday the 3rd: Moving home!!!! So at some point I have to pack. not sure when i can do that!
Beyond that, I have to finish this Fanny Paper today. I have 9 out of 20. But I do have a lot yet to write about for that. :) But I have to write it this afternoon in about an hour and half since I have this conservative conference to go to tonight and all day tomorrow. I'm kinda looking forward to it. I have alot of work to do but i know if i were here I wouldn't do my work anyway. So atleast I'll be productive with my time. I'm learning politics. fun! Then tomorrow after that I have to drive over to church to be at the youth sunday stuff. I'm really worried about that because they have not practiced and I don't think the adults that will be there will really help them. ugh! I just don't know what to do! I can't be a full time student and work full time with the youth ministry.
Whatelse? Last night I was so frustrated with praise team. I just want to run away right now! That's all. Run away maybe to Iraq, curl up in Ben's sleeping bag and cry. I wish he were here to hold me when i cry. I haven't cried because I don't have time. Kinda like Elena the other week, I know I just need to cry and get all this stress out but I just cant. AH! I really miss Ben right now. It's getting worse and worse the closer to the end of school comes. Once school is done with I only have about 4 months until he comes home.And the first month, almost 2 is me working at my internship which is going to be interesting. I have to sign this paper that says I will not knowngly participate in sin (Basically that's what it says). It makes me laugh. Sin includes, sexual, greed, drunkenness,swindleing and more but those are the 4 that caught my attention. I have a meeting with them next week about my internship. AHH! But I need a drink now to get me through these last few weeks. It was only a year ago that I was not stressed at the end of the semester. It was only a year ago that Gary cheated on me and I met adam and really had fun in England. I want to be there so bad right now but I know I can't. Next year at this time I better not be stressed as much as I am now. I'll be finishing up my Senior Project. I'll be ready to graduate. AH! I just want out of this right now!
I want to be home right now with Gracie! We need those massages now! I dont know if I can wait until our birthdays for that babe! lol. This is my schedule for the next few weeks:
today: Conservative conference
Saturday: Conservative Conference and Youth Sunday practice
Sunday: Youth Sunday I'm preaching at 11 at the tradiational service which i need to work on that sermon tomorrow night hopefully
Monday: New Testament Test
Tuesday: Youth Ministry Paper is due
Wednesday: Fanny Crosby Spirituality is due
Thursday: Meeting with LCBC
Friday: Discipline Paper
Saturday: WOrking 8 hours but beyond that nothing! working on my sermon
Sunday: Preaching
Monday: Sermon Due and Making of Ministry Task Force Meeting at Church.
Tuesday: Daystar Banquet and my last Youth Ministry Class!
Wednesday: Field Experience paper due
Thursday: working and praise team.
Friday-Sunday District Retreat
Monday the 2nd: Theology of Ministry Class Exam and it's my last day of classes
Tuesday the 3rd: Moving home!!!! So at some point I have to pack. not sure when i can do that!