So...yeah
So...yeah
I broke up with Matt. For those of you who have talked to me, you may have an idea why, and if not, just ask, I'll explain the whole thing.
I feel bad for him, because I don't think he saw this coming at all. I also feel bad, because I had to be honest, there was no other way to handle the situation. He had a lot more feelings for me than I had for him; it wasn't going to work out. Unfortunately, I don't think he understands that though. Why should I continue the relationship if I knew that I didn't have the same feelings for him? It would have hurt a lot more had I continued to date him, and then realized more than ever that it wasn't going to work out.
He's still the nicest guy I've ever known, but I just feel that I'm not compatible with him in a serious relationship. The relationship got more serious than I wanted in the first place. It all happened so quickly. We never even "dated" for awhile first, which still drives me crazy. I felt that everything was really rushed. He was so happy, that I didn't want to bring up how uncomfortable I was most of the time either. I hate that I am compelled to make people happy and do what's expected of me, and still insist on keeping my own independence. It ends up conflicting and then not working out at all. It's not a good thing. I'm hoping eventually he'll calm down a little, and I'll be able to call him. It's not that I don't want to be friends, I just don't want to be a girlfriend. I don't want to be a girlfriend at all; it's too much work, and honestly, I'm not that dedicated. I'm very self-absorbed for this type of thing.
I guess in other news, my classes have started, and I think it's going to be a good semester. I think I'm going to be insanely busy though. I actually have classes that require work, so I'll be doing things for once, instead of like last semester, where I was so bored, I would hope and pray for homework.
I guess that's all for now. I'm been knitting and crocheting a lot more than usual. It's a good thing, because it's very relaxing, which I've needed recently. I'm currently working on a baby blanket for a girl at work. It's coming out very cute, so I'm excited.
That's all though. This was a much longer post than I anticipated. Sorry if you read the whole thing, since there really isn't anything that exciting
I broke up with Matt. For those of you who have talked to me, you may have an idea why, and if not, just ask, I'll explain the whole thing.
I feel bad for him, because I don't think he saw this coming at all. I also feel bad, because I had to be honest, there was no other way to handle the situation. He had a lot more feelings for me than I had for him; it wasn't going to work out. Unfortunately, I don't think he understands that though. Why should I continue the relationship if I knew that I didn't have the same feelings for him? It would have hurt a lot more had I continued to date him, and then realized more than ever that it wasn't going to work out.
He's still the nicest guy I've ever known, but I just feel that I'm not compatible with him in a serious relationship. The relationship got more serious than I wanted in the first place. It all happened so quickly. We never even "dated" for awhile first, which still drives me crazy. I felt that everything was really rushed. He was so happy, that I didn't want to bring up how uncomfortable I was most of the time either. I hate that I am compelled to make people happy and do what's expected of me, and still insist on keeping my own independence. It ends up conflicting and then not working out at all. It's not a good thing. I'm hoping eventually he'll calm down a little, and I'll be able to call him. It's not that I don't want to be friends, I just don't want to be a girlfriend. I don't want to be a girlfriend at all; it's too much work, and honestly, I'm not that dedicated. I'm very self-absorbed for this type of thing.
I guess in other news, my classes have started, and I think it's going to be a good semester. I think I'm going to be insanely busy though. I actually have classes that require work, so I'll be doing things for once, instead of like last semester, where I was so bored, I would hope and pray for homework.
I guess that's all for now. I'm been knitting and crocheting a lot more than usual. It's a good thing, because it's very relaxing, which I've needed recently. I'm currently working on a baby blanket for a girl at work. It's coming out very cute, so I'm excited.
That's all though. This was a much longer post than I anticipated. Sorry if you read the whole thing, since there really isn't anything that exciting