Inconveniences
Meeting the right person at the wrong time and place. Meeting the wrong person at the right time and place. Inconvenient timing. Inconvenient locations. Inconvenient feelings.
I think we could have had something special. I think I could have shown you something no one else could have. I think we could have been disgustingly happy together. But you never let me in.
You never kept yourself at my arm's distance. You always stood the standard 10 feet away from me. I would always have to continuously run 10 feet your way if I wanted to reach you. I'm not so good at running. But if I had walked, you would have turned away before I reached you. I had to chase you. I had to hunt you. I had to be quiet. I had to be sly. I had to be subtle. Because God forbid I act authentic around you and shed my hunting mask.
God forbid I show you my real feelings.
And God forbid you show yours.
Is it that hard for you to be genuine? Do you think really my heart is a perpetual eggshell? Able to crack with just the teensiest bit of friction? Do I look that weak to you?
I wish you were bold like me so you could be genuine. I wish you were courageous enough to show your real feelings. It saddens me that you're not.
And I'm sorry you're not strong enough to say 'no'. I'm sorry you're not strong enough to say 'yes'.
But I am strong enough. And I will say it.
No.
No. No. No.
No.No.No.No.No.No.
NoNoNoNoNoNoNoNoNoNo!
NONONONONONONONONONONO!!!
And there you have it.
The straight answer you were too cowardly to say to my face.
I think we could have had something special. I think I could have shown you something no one else could have. I think we could have been disgustingly happy together. But you never let me in.
You never kept yourself at my arm's distance. You always stood the standard 10 feet away from me. I would always have to continuously run 10 feet your way if I wanted to reach you. I'm not so good at running. But if I had walked, you would have turned away before I reached you. I had to chase you. I had to hunt you. I had to be quiet. I had to be sly. I had to be subtle. Because God forbid I act authentic around you and shed my hunting mask.
God forbid I show you my real feelings.
And God forbid you show yours.
Is it that hard for you to be genuine? Do you think really my heart is a perpetual eggshell? Able to crack with just the teensiest bit of friction? Do I look that weak to you?
I wish you were bold like me so you could be genuine. I wish you were courageous enough to show your real feelings. It saddens me that you're not.
And I'm sorry you're not strong enough to say 'no'. I'm sorry you're not strong enough to say 'yes'.
But I am strong enough. And I will say it.
No.
No. No. No.
No.No.No.No.No.No.
NoNoNoNoNoNoNoNoNoNo!
NONONONONONONONONONONO!!!
And there you have it.
The straight answer you were too cowardly to say to my face.