ThE rEaL wOrLd

[butterball8592]

Well let me say this weekend was a very very good weekend! I should say it did have its ups and downs, some were really bad, while others were very good. Trip down there wasnt that bad, i was excited, it was the trip back home, knowing you have to go back to life in a way, go back to things u dont really want to go back to. Well this weekend has taught me a lot, showed me things I really didnt want to know, but i guess you have to find out eventually, and well the circumstances in which I found out wasnt the best, but theres nothing to change that. Its just I dont know whats real or whats not anymore, I was raised by my dad and step mom, thinking my mom was the evil person the relationship, and come to find out, there was things I never new about my dad, then again i never really asked, but for 19 years there were things i never knew, and its a eye opener. Hurts though, bad, nobody really knows, but well ya. Luv u. I love my dad to death, he raised me, but the things that i came to find out, well they are interesting, it just hurts me knowing, I wish I didnt know, I wish it never happend, that way it wouldnt eat at me, wouldnt tear my heart apart everytime i thought about it, makes everything else seem like nothing. No, im not sad, im just gloomy everytime i remember, so now i try not to remember, but I think that I choose not to remember any of my past, I barely remember any of my past, and when I think about it, I cant even remember if it was a dream, or i actaully lived that. Let me give an example, I was at dennys satureday, and my mom was telling me about the florida trip that we went on, well I didnt remember any of it, only when she said somthing bad that i did, or somthing she remembered, that I recall, but to me it never happend in my mind, i dont understand it, its like im losing all my past memories. I guess it could be worse, i could lose memory has to who i was right??? Other than that, the weekend was awesome, best time i have had, loved it. Came home, didnt have to work!! Yay. Went to see kevins apartment, love it, very cool, now I wish I could have moved with him, eh, maybe something good will come along for me, get me out. We played pool, i won, but paid a price dearly too. DAMN YOU JOSE! Proceeded to get tucked into bed, you are good for me, I love you so much.
OKIE DOKIE, NUFF SAID gotta get ready for wrk!!! EEEK!