(no subject)
i know this may change when im sober, but lately ive thought of joining some type of armed forces. i know i do not agree with anything about the war. but i feel like in a way my life would be straightened out. i would get away from everything. i would get away from family and friends. and be my own person. but part of me doesnt want that. the part of me that january 2nd or 3rd or in that week of 2004 didnt want something. the part of me in that week that knew there was something stopping me. that part doenst believe it but they are still after all the lies and broken promises what keeps me on. i just dont think they kno that