Starting...anew
Well... I've had a journal on here for... 3 years now... But that portion of my life is over... so i felt like it was time to start something new...
Things that are going on in my life... I dont know... everything has been pretty random lately... In September I met someone who changed my life... And in time I began to fall in love with her... and I still do... I love her so much. We arent dating... We never have... Kimmy and I have gone through so much craziness... From me having these feelings... to talking about them... me getting mad and jealous over things that we know i shouldnt... Being in love with her has made it so hard for me to be with anyone else...
In the back of my mind I cant shake her thoughts... Thoughts of wanting to start a new life... those seem to have faded away... I recall a conversation about fasting... it doesnt seem to have taken place... It makes me wonder... Can we ever have the kind of friendship, that both parties feels is just that... both parties meaning I share that feeling... I need to shake it... i know i do... for myself... for her... I dont think it matters... Someone seems to have taken my place anyway... Funny how things change when a new face is in the picture... all of the things i predicted... have happened... it hurt me at first... but... life goes on...
Things that are going on in my life... I dont know... everything has been pretty random lately... In September I met someone who changed my life... And in time I began to fall in love with her... and I still do... I love her so much. We arent dating... We never have... Kimmy and I have gone through so much craziness... From me having these feelings... to talking about them... me getting mad and jealous over things that we know i shouldnt... Being in love with her has made it so hard for me to be with anyone else...
In the back of my mind I cant shake her thoughts... Thoughts of wanting to start a new life... those seem to have faded away... I recall a conversation about fasting... it doesnt seem to have taken place... It makes me wonder... Can we ever have the kind of friendship, that both parties feels is just that... both parties meaning I share that feeling... I need to shake it... i know i do... for myself... for her... I dont think it matters... Someone seems to have taken my place anyway... Funny how things change when a new face is in the picture... all of the things i predicted... have happened... it hurt me at first... but... life goes on...