Some writing shit

[buttacup_baybeh]

my feelings tword a guy i just cant seem for get out of my head

ive given him my all-
in my eyes,
maybe im blind,
i dont think i am- cause i can truely see clearly
that-
this isnt right,
what was once a feeling
i never wanted to let go and now i want it to go beyond unexistence
yet i turn my back
but my head and heart stay.

the phone rings
and as much as i want to forget i run to recieve the reciever
and my ears are waiting to hear
the voice which once gave me goose bumps
but now
just tears
im let down
ive developed a hate which i hate
because to hate you must love and thats what i want but i cant have
so i dont want it so much as i do -
but i do want it
i want him to let go
so it will be easier for me to move on
but to imagine living without him breathing
without him kills me
i dont know how but hes hurt me
to the point where i no longer hurt-
just cry
and when i cry i feel
pathetic
because when every tear breaks it just proves
ive done this before and