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Omg i'm so stressed out.
I had a really good week a couple of weeks ago. I had work off for a week, and i went down to comox to meet matts parents. We stayed in the barn .... the sweetest crib EVER!! But it was stress free because i just got to relax, and his parents are the sweetest people on earth. Specially his mom. But anyways... we both got sick there, so it was really hard to enjoy our time because we were both grumpy. It was more then a cold, but it was like the worst cold i've ever had in my life. I hated it.
While i was down there, i bought a cell phone. New rasor baby. But i totally regret it. Matt and the stupid pushy sales men made me decide to buy the rasor instead of the nice bubbly one (which is more me). Now i'm stressing out even more because we put it under matts credit card. My mom doesn't have a credit card, but i don't want him to be stuck with a rasor for 3 years!!!!! I supose my mom could get one, but the only days she has off is sundays and the bank closes on sundays!! Baaah.
So i'm also stressin out about matt. Great guy, different from all the other guys, is motivated to live a good life and everythin. But we fight like crasy. Relationships are supose to start off perfect.. but we started off like SHIT. I'm going crasy trying to deal. He's bi polar, and everyone who knows about that disorder has told me to leave him asap. They keep telling me in the end i will end up getting hurt emotionally in some way.. not intentionally though. But pretty much i should get out of it as soon as possible. He's showing so many signs of this disorder, and like? How can i hate someone for something they don't purposly do. I didn't know how serious this disorder got. We both decided to go on a break right now. But now him and i are debating wether to break up or not. I dont know. I pray that everything will work out for us, cus theres potential. But it makes me so upset that we had to come down to this so soon. But i pray this break will turn our relationship out for the better.
I just miss him.
FUCCCKKKKK