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i'm so torn right now. i really like the friends that i've made here, we had an awesome weekend this past weekend doing absolutely nothing. but i miss some aspects of the kinds of friends i have at home. we don't party. and i know that even in high school i barely partied in comparison to some people, but i did get some parties in there. everyone was dressed up for halloween this weekend in awesome/slutty/funny costumes and going to parties, and we were in our pajamas watching antm for hours. i'm not going to pretend i don't love watching antm in my pajamas, i could do it for days straight, but it's hallofuckingween, i want to wear a costume and be silly. most of these girls don't drink, which i really admire, but the ones that do either don't want to exclude the others, or annoy the fuck out of me and i'm not just gonna drink with them. and i sound so stupid right now but i don't feel like i'm making the most of this experience. and maybe i only feel that way because all of my other friends are having the experience i want and i won't let myself fully enjoy what i have because of that. grr. tim's coming this weekend, i'm pretty pumped about everyone meeting him. whatever, i'm getting a costume and wearing it to all of my classes on halloween and i don't care what anyone thinks of that.