i dont want to grow up..i still feel like a kid
The most scaryest thing to me right now has to be growing up, its so much different when your 14 or 12 thinking "oh my gosh i can't wait to be that age so i can do all those cool things older teenagers do." then once you get to that age your like.."god damn that was fast..." then as time progress's you turn to an age where things aren't to illigal anymore besides you know maybe killing someone..jah.
but no seriously, i mean i didnt think i'd grow up this fast! and i still act like a big kid, i dont like acting like a fucking grown up all serious and such. even though i have done a lot of things that are very grown up i guess eh? i mean moving out of my house and such and living with a guy i met threw a friend and than living with someone else for about a week and now look where i am!! i rent out my own place with two other people i happen to know and i have my own job (thank goodness not at a fucking corporation!) and i dont have to fucking be abused by my dad anymore and listen to my mom whine about this and that.
if i chould or had the courage to tell you all what i did exactly over the summer i would, but i am ashamed in typing all of it because half of you might still not be my friends anymore or just might not even listen. moving out has opend my eyes more, met different people with different problems..and you want to know the funny thing? i seemed to have helped a lot of those people with there so called "problems" wither it was with drugs or some other kind of issue. but then when i showed that i cared to much they started to get really attached to me and wanted to be with me in a realationship.
TO CONCLUDE: i should be posting pictures that should give you some idea of what i experianced over the summer up to now. i just need a scanner...sigh.
but no seriously, i mean i didnt think i'd grow up this fast! and i still act like a big kid, i dont like acting like a fucking grown up all serious and such. even though i have done a lot of things that are very grown up i guess eh? i mean moving out of my house and such and living with a guy i met threw a friend and than living with someone else for about a week and now look where i am!! i rent out my own place with two other people i happen to know and i have my own job (thank goodness not at a fucking corporation!) and i dont have to fucking be abused by my dad anymore and listen to my mom whine about this and that.
if i chould or had the courage to tell you all what i did exactly over the summer i would, but i am ashamed in typing all of it because half of you might still not be my friends anymore or just might not even listen. moving out has opend my eyes more, met different people with different problems..and you want to know the funny thing? i seemed to have helped a lot of those people with there so called "problems" wither it was with drugs or some other kind of issue. but then when i showed that i cared to much they started to get really attached to me and wanted to be with me in a realationship.
TO CONCLUDE: i should be posting pictures that should give you some idea of what i experianced over the summer up to now. i just need a scanner...sigh.