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hey... um this entry is mainly to one person. i know i haven't been too great of a person lately and i really really don't mean to be like this. because the truth is that i haven't been happier since i knew you. and the last thing that i'm trying to do is push you away but i'm aware that's exactly what i'm on my way of doing. i don't want to go down that road, it's just not my place, it's not me. like i said, i can't help but feeling this way after what i've previously been through but i know you said that you'd never hurt me and like i said before, i trust you. you really don't know how much everything means to me, and i know i don't show it very well at all, it's just another one of my flaws. but i'm trying to better myself, i really am. i know i haven't said this enough the past few days, but i love you, i really do. just please don't give up on me.
i miss you sooo much but if you don't want to be around me for a while, i'd completely understand.
(Why, Why, Why, Why) x4
Sometimes this beauty is choking me,
but at least it's your hands at my throat
Your lashes brush against my cheek,
coupled with your breath on my neck
The world around you falls away and I will still be there
I know my words are like daggers but they cut me too
And I am sorry for all the fucked up things I say I didn't mean it
And I never realized that I can be what I hate
Let's be happy with what we have, enjoy the beauty in these days
Sometimes we'll laugh sometimes we'll scream no one said caring was easy
I know there was a time when emotions felt like pulling teeth
Sometimes I felt so soulless I couldn't even look at me
It's pathetic to hate who you are and it feels like hell to change
But I'll be damned if I push you away
I remember when my dreams were dying
and I damned the sun
I damned the sun to pieces
I carved hateful thoughts into my chest
then you took my hand and nothing has ever felt the same
and nothing, has ever
nothing has ever felt the same.