RIP my ture and best friend

[butifuldaydream]

Everyone in their life has that one person that they seem like they can turn to for everything and know that they will always be there. well that person was no person at all, it was peanuts, my dog. I know this may sound a lil of wierd, but she was always there for me since i was like 9 or 10. She was my everything and she knew that. She protected me over everybody...even my parents jokingly messed with me she was there to growl at them and even once she bit my mom....thats how much she loved me. She followed me everywhere and knew when i was talking to her, leaving, coming home, just everything. I really wish i was home so that i could at least say goodbye to her. I know that i wouldnt be able to hand it, but she was like my baby and i never got to say goodbye....it just breaks my heart. I know that she is in a happier place and that she is looking over me right now.....i needed to listen to some music to try to calm myslef so i put on bayside, which plays on shuffle and the first song that played was Dont call me peanut. Life is full of signs and this was def one. i really hope that she finds happiness whereever she goes. My picture of her with her cowboy hat and the hige beautiful smile that she has will always be placed on my desk and she will always remain in my heart. I dont even know if this makes sense cause im just rambling.

RIP Peanuts
April 26th, 2006

one thing that is strange is that i was looking over my past live journals just yesterday or the day before and came across the date i wrote the tribut to my grandpa...which was almost a year ago....hopefully they are in heaven together.....i just cant believe they are both gone.... =(