out and about...
dear journal,
today spent the day with my grandparents and my mom. She decided to drag me out of the house about 8 this morning since on monday i lost my job. So I had no excuse, besides i had to drive javier to work anyways. yesterday javier had the guts to tell me finally that his u.s. papers expired. he is not a citizen here and if the cops catch him, he will have to be forced to go back to mexico. so he is trying to get me to marry him but i know that that is not the only reason why otherwise he would have said this a long time ago.
Every night i dream about this specific guy. the very same one that i saw at mjc school orientation. i still have no idea who he is but i really want to meet him. i dont dare say anything to javier. So many of my friends are going to mjc this semester and i feel bad because now i cant afford to go. all i wanted to take was ballet. come to find out 2 of my friends actually are taking ballet right now but my financial aid still hasnt came through yet. gosh im so anxious to meet the guy of my dreams that i cannot stop thinking about or dreaming about. its crazy. i am falling more and more in love with him every day and i have only seen him once. how can this be? I am praying that i can take ballet next sememster. I get butterflies every time I lay down to go to sleep because I dream about this guy all night long and every night. Its so bad that when I look at Javier, all I see is that guy and then I have to shake it off but I need to find him. I have to go look for a job while i have internet. At my house we dont have internet anymore because we moved so now I have nothing. Thanks for reading...
p.s. if you get the chance, read 2 Corinthians 1:17-24 I love that passage. It is now my favorite passage in the BIBLE. Gotta go. See ya!
today spent the day with my grandparents and my mom. She decided to drag me out of the house about 8 this morning since on monday i lost my job. So I had no excuse, besides i had to drive javier to work anyways. yesterday javier had the guts to tell me finally that his u.s. papers expired. he is not a citizen here and if the cops catch him, he will have to be forced to go back to mexico. so he is trying to get me to marry him but i know that that is not the only reason why otherwise he would have said this a long time ago.
Every night i dream about this specific guy. the very same one that i saw at mjc school orientation. i still have no idea who he is but i really want to meet him. i dont dare say anything to javier. So many of my friends are going to mjc this semester and i feel bad because now i cant afford to go. all i wanted to take was ballet. come to find out 2 of my friends actually are taking ballet right now but my financial aid still hasnt came through yet. gosh im so anxious to meet the guy of my dreams that i cannot stop thinking about or dreaming about. its crazy. i am falling more and more in love with him every day and i have only seen him once. how can this be? I am praying that i can take ballet next sememster. I get butterflies every time I lay down to go to sleep because I dream about this guy all night long and every night. Its so bad that when I look at Javier, all I see is that guy and then I have to shake it off but I need to find him. I have to go look for a job while i have internet. At my house we dont have internet anymore because we moved so now I have nothing. Thanks for reading...
p.s. if you get the chance, read 2 Corinthians 1:17-24 I love that passage. It is now my favorite passage in the BIBLE. Gotta go. See ya!