i'm getting a little scared of myself
I've always been just like my mom. I look exactly like she did in high school. We were both cheerleaders who didn't fit the stereotype. We have the same dry, crazy sense of humor. But lately, I've been noticing some other traits...I think I might be acting like my dad.
Now my mom is straight-forward and a little stubborn, traits that I too posess. But I'm down-right blunt, and I really try to be nice and kind, but I think I'm getting mean. Now most people would dismiss this as not being a push over, and it's true, having a little back bone isn't bad, but I'm scared. I'm scared I'm going to act like my dad. He was a real Jeckel and Hyde kinda guy. He could be nice, and the next minute he could be cruel and ruthless. I think I'm starting to inherit some kind of dormant, supressed gene. It scares me. The last person I ever wanted to be like was him, and now that I know what he was like, I'm starting to see aspects of his demenor in me. I'm scared, I have to fix this. It's like the plague, it started out small, in flees on rats, but then grew to kill half of Europe. I don't want these traits to consume me, because that would make me a person I would hate. This must end, I have to exterminate these traits. I act like this involuntarily though, I can't control it. After middle school, I promised myself I would never be shy again, but if being mean is the alternative I may have to break my promise. I don't want to be a push over, but I don't want to be cruel. I think I need some hard core antibiotics to clear up this thing that's infecting in my genes.
Now my mom is straight-forward and a little stubborn, traits that I too posess. But I'm down-right blunt, and I really try to be nice and kind, but I think I'm getting mean. Now most people would dismiss this as not being a push over, and it's true, having a little back bone isn't bad, but I'm scared. I'm scared I'm going to act like my dad. He was a real Jeckel and Hyde kinda guy. He could be nice, and the next minute he could be cruel and ruthless. I think I'm starting to inherit some kind of dormant, supressed gene. It scares me. The last person I ever wanted to be like was him, and now that I know what he was like, I'm starting to see aspects of his demenor in me. I'm scared, I have to fix this. It's like the plague, it started out small, in flees on rats, but then grew to kill half of Europe. I don't want these traits to consume me, because that would make me a person I would hate. This must end, I have to exterminate these traits. I act like this involuntarily though, I can't control it. After middle school, I promised myself I would never be shy again, but if being mean is the alternative I may have to break my promise. I don't want to be a push over, but I don't want to be cruel. I think I need some hard core antibiotics to clear up this thing that's infecting in my genes.