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[butane_x_love]

i would really like for my boyfriend to treat me like his girlfriend in more ways than having sex with me and saying that he loves me and bringing me to his parents' house so i can be even more frightened for our future because i don't want to end up like them. i would really like for him to write me notes and to tell me i'm pretty without me having to prompt him and for him to do things because he wants to, not because i makehim or because he's afraid i'll get mad at him if he doesn't. because one day, he's going to wake up and not care if i'm mad because he didn't do something because he will have turned into my father and i will have turned into my mother and we will hate each other and be willing to admit it to anyone besides ourselves and each other.

i don't know why i've been pulled towards livejournal recently, but i have been and i'm going to find a job right now but i'll probably write more later because i'll be with my entire family. i got a haircut and new glasses and i look fab, not gonna lie.