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[but_you]

I wish my laptop wasn't breaking and my boyfriend didn't work nights.
I wish I could get out of Shepherdstown sooner than is really possible.
I wish conversations were more two sided rather than someone confiding in me as I nod my head.
I wish I had someone to confide in.
I wish deleting my facebook would delete everyone along with it.
I wish I could be happy in a group of people instead of wanting to run away.
I wish I had started smoking a year ago instead of 5.
I wish people would stop being obnoxious.
I wish people would stop being insane.
I wish I would stop being obnoxious & insane.
I wish I still felt close to my friends.
I wish people wouldn't get drunk and cry.
I wish everyone I hurt would heal up and stop making me feel the guilt of hurting them over and over and over again.
I wish people that I care about would stop talking about killing themselves.
I wish Brendan were still here.
I wish I could make friends easier.
I wish I liked people more. Or at all, honestly.
I wish all the pain that I've ever felt would go away for good instead of flaring up every now and again.
I wish everyone didn't feel lost. I wish I didn't feel lost.

I wish I were less grumpy & reclusive, but sometimes it's all I can be.