Still waiting...
i have a tale to tell,
sometimes it gets so hard to hide it well,
i was not ready for the fall,
too blind to see the writing on the wall,
a man can tell a thousand lies,
i've learned my lesson well,
hope i live to tell the secret i have learned,
till then
it will burn inside of me...
-Madonna, "Live to Tell"
one of her few songs that holds any meaning to me.
(my bonder's also connected, so to say, with 80'S M.)
So i'm still looking, still waiting, still alone.
still hurting.
i went to a Faerie festival. plenty of witches, plenty of wannabes. i felt i was the single TRUE Elf there. too many fakers.
just...not...fair...
besides, all the older men there (35-50) who i may have felt a slight connection w/ were with another woman and had a tiny baby in their arms...i feel so so alone...
Where are you, my Ada, my daddy? i need you...
is it true? are you gone from this universe????? or am i delusional?????
what did i do?
~Arwen
sometimes it gets so hard to hide it well,
i was not ready for the fall,
too blind to see the writing on the wall,
a man can tell a thousand lies,
i've learned my lesson well,
hope i live to tell the secret i have learned,
till then
it will burn inside of me...
-Madonna, "Live to Tell"
one of her few songs that holds any meaning to me.
(my bonder's also connected, so to say, with 80'S M.)
So i'm still looking, still waiting, still alone.
still hurting.
i went to a Faerie festival. plenty of witches, plenty of wannabes. i felt i was the single TRUE Elf there. too many fakers.
just...not...fair...
besides, all the older men there (35-50) who i may have felt a slight connection w/ were with another woman and had a tiny baby in their arms...i feel so so alone...
Where are you, my Ada, my daddy? i need you...
is it true? are you gone from this universe????? or am i delusional?????
what did i do?
~Arwen