i've got my finger on the trigger && youre in my way.
well, the past few days have been s-h-i-t-t-y.
im doing freaking horrible in math.
my average is like a 58. & i gotta 28 on the test.
i suprise myself sometimes i'm so smart geez.
i have so many damn things on my mind i cant concentrate.
i seriously think i have a.d.d or somethin.
yeah so heres whats been going on..
my 3 cousins (my aunts kids) have a blood disease.
a really bad one. that only allows them to live..
maybe 20 years & their doing really bad.
&& im really close to the middle one, michael.
&& theyre in a treatment center in maryland.
&& theyre doing really bad.
&& ive been worrying SO bad about them.
i feel like im sitting around healthy
&& living life all wrong & wasting it.
when theyre fighting so hard for it.
i wish i could switch spots with them.
cause they dont deserve that.
butttt if you could, pray for them.
it would mean alot to me. you have no idea.
anyways.
so ive been losing weight.
&& i dont need to && i cant help that i am.
its horrible. everyone tells me how thin im getting.
and tells me that i need to eat.
and lemme just tell you how bad that upsets me.
im well aware that im skinny.
&& i cant help it.
i have alot of shit going on
&& sometimes i dont have an appetite.
im not anorexic or bulemic..
i just sometimes am not hungry.
my dad is making me drink nasty protein shakes.
that make me really wanna throw up.
mm yeah, wrote matt a really long sorry note today.
i was proud of myself for actually writing it.
but im glad i did. i guess.
yeah so friday i believe im goin to the bball game w/allie.
that should be fun we havent hung out in FOREVER.
&& the weekend all my time will be devoted to..
LIL MISS CREGGERRRRRRRRR <3
sorry to everyone if ive been weird lately.
or extra mean. i dont mean to be.
well hope everyones doing good.
later.
im doing freaking horrible in math.
my average is like a 58. & i gotta 28 on the test.
i suprise myself sometimes i'm so smart geez.
i have so many damn things on my mind i cant concentrate.
i seriously think i have a.d.d or somethin.
yeah so heres whats been going on..
my 3 cousins (my aunts kids) have a blood disease.
a really bad one. that only allows them to live..
maybe 20 years & their doing really bad.
&& im really close to the middle one, michael.
&& theyre in a treatment center in maryland.
&& theyre doing really bad.
&& ive been worrying SO bad about them.
i feel like im sitting around healthy
&& living life all wrong & wasting it.
when theyre fighting so hard for it.
i wish i could switch spots with them.
cause they dont deserve that.
butttt if you could, pray for them.
it would mean alot to me. you have no idea.
anyways.
so ive been losing weight.
&& i dont need to && i cant help that i am.
its horrible. everyone tells me how thin im getting.
and tells me that i need to eat.
and lemme just tell you how bad that upsets me.
im well aware that im skinny.
&& i cant help it.
i have alot of shit going on
&& sometimes i dont have an appetite.
im not anorexic or bulemic..
i just sometimes am not hungry.
my dad is making me drink nasty protein shakes.
that make me really wanna throw up.
mm yeah, wrote matt a really long sorry note today.
i was proud of myself for actually writing it.
but im glad i did. i guess.
yeah so friday i believe im goin to the bball game w/allie.
that should be fun we havent hung out in FOREVER.
&& the weekend all my time will be devoted to..
LIL MISS CREGGERRRRRRRRR <3
sorry to everyone if ive been weird lately.
or extra mean. i dont mean to be.
well hope everyones doing good.
later.