Exhausted
The past week has been so draining: now the questions circle in my head-
at 2:00 pm yesterday, we found out that my mom does in fact have breast cancer-
they removed all of the lymphnodes in her right breast-
so they believe it has all been removed, but that statement is still questionable.
We won't know exactly what stage she is in for another week-
if it's between a 1-2 they got it all, if it's between a 3-4 we begin another phase-
checking the bones, liver, and kidneys to see if it has spread there.
She will have chemotherapy for at least 6 months, and she is in a lot of pain for weeks to come.
This all raises so many questions within me, I'm going to have to take most of my time off to take care of her.
Also, I would need ample amount of time to do my brca1 test-
I am currently waiting for my referral to Dr. Arun, where a consoltation will be done-
Then the pre-determination letter will be sent to insurance, just for the gene test alone.
The surgery would be preventative to me, however; I'm so worried about catching any cancer fast.
My aunt was 25 when diagnosed, and my great aunt was 27.
It all just sucks, and reality has set in; for my mom, for me.
I wish I could just go back to worrying about what I'm going to eat-
Or how badly I miss going to empire.
Or meeting up for drinks and shows.
Or how my friends are able to worry about saving for a trip, or something fun.
And I'm worrying about saving for a life saving/altering procedure.
It all just seems like I'm in a dark place right now, where I never chose to be.
I'm so glad my mom is here, it's just realizing the long haul ahead.
at 2:00 pm yesterday, we found out that my mom does in fact have breast cancer-
they removed all of the lymphnodes in her right breast-
so they believe it has all been removed, but that statement is still questionable.
We won't know exactly what stage she is in for another week-
if it's between a 1-2 they got it all, if it's between a 3-4 we begin another phase-
checking the bones, liver, and kidneys to see if it has spread there.
She will have chemotherapy for at least 6 months, and she is in a lot of pain for weeks to come.
This all raises so many questions within me, I'm going to have to take most of my time off to take care of her.
Also, I would need ample amount of time to do my brca1 test-
I am currently waiting for my referral to Dr. Arun, where a consoltation will be done-
Then the pre-determination letter will be sent to insurance, just for the gene test alone.
The surgery would be preventative to me, however; I'm so worried about catching any cancer fast.
My aunt was 25 when diagnosed, and my great aunt was 27.
It all just sucks, and reality has set in; for my mom, for me.
I wish I could just go back to worrying about what I'm going to eat-
Or how badly I miss going to empire.
Or meeting up for drinks and shows.
Or how my friends are able to worry about saving for a trip, or something fun.
And I'm worrying about saving for a life saving/altering procedure.
It all just seems like I'm in a dark place right now, where I never chose to be.
I'm so glad my mom is here, it's just realizing the long haul ahead.