Thinking about wanting 'Ana'?
I am not trying to be mean or offensive in this post.
This is not a diet - this is a disease that takes away your life. RUN, don't walk, RUN to your nearest therapist and let them know that you have been trying to starve yourself. PLEASE get help before you get too far into this.
If you think that you will think you're just beautiful once you lose so many pounds, think again. You will hate yourself. You will fear yourself. You will be sure that you are so ugly and fat and evil that you will have no recollection of ever feeling loved, or beautiful, or worthy. If you do actually get past the point of thinking that this is a diet instead of a living hell, you WILL regret it.
and. you will never think you are beautiful. NEVER. You will look at yourself and hate what you see in the mirror. You will look at food and think that you don't deserve it - not because you are fat, but because you truly believe that you are an awful, horrible person, possibly the worst one on Earth. You will see the number on the scale drop and look at yourself in the mirror and see a big fat freak.
You will lie. You will lie out your ass to tell people you're alright, because you are so ashamed of what you are - horrible, ugly, evil, a right waste of air and food. This will become the root reason of why you will not eat - because you know with the certainty that you know that you walk upon the Earth, you know that you are the stupidest, most selfish, most horrible person to exist... ever. Move over, Hitler.
You will be terrified of yourself and of letting anyone get close to you or touch you. Not because they will take your 'dream' of being 'thin' away - because it is not that you are 'fat' that you starve yourself - but because you know that you are dirt and you will hurt them.
In the end, you will either decide to get out yourself, or die - likely from a heart attack, suicide, or multiple organ failure. And the only way anyone ever lets themselves get that way is because they can't see it like other people can. Can't see thinness, can't see bones - can only see worthlessness.
It's not pretty. it's not fucking pretty.
Get out now. While you can. And God help you to never come back this way again.
This is not a diet - this is a disease that takes away your life. RUN, don't walk, RUN to your nearest therapist and let them know that you have been trying to starve yourself. PLEASE get help before you get too far into this.
If you think that you will think you're just beautiful once you lose so many pounds, think again. You will hate yourself. You will fear yourself. You will be sure that you are so ugly and fat and evil that you will have no recollection of ever feeling loved, or beautiful, or worthy. If you do actually get past the point of thinking that this is a diet instead of a living hell, you WILL regret it.
and. you will never think you are beautiful. NEVER. You will look at yourself and hate what you see in the mirror. You will look at food and think that you don't deserve it - not because you are fat, but because you truly believe that you are an awful, horrible person, possibly the worst one on Earth. You will see the number on the scale drop and look at yourself in the mirror and see a big fat freak.
You will lie. You will lie out your ass to tell people you're alright, because you are so ashamed of what you are - horrible, ugly, evil, a right waste of air and food. This will become the root reason of why you will not eat - because you know with the certainty that you know that you walk upon the Earth, you know that you are the stupidest, most selfish, most horrible person to exist... ever. Move over, Hitler.
You will be terrified of yourself and of letting anyone get close to you or touch you. Not because they will take your 'dream' of being 'thin' away - because it is not that you are 'fat' that you starve yourself - but because you know that you are dirt and you will hurt them.
In the end, you will either decide to get out yourself, or die - likely from a heart attack, suicide, or multiple organ failure. And the only way anyone ever lets themselves get that way is because they can't see it like other people can. Can't see thinness, can't see bones - can only see worthlessness.
It's not pretty. it's not fucking pretty.
Get out now. While you can. And God help you to never come back this way again.