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So I am finally closing a chapter of my life---for good! As of April 12 I will no longer be able to have kids in the "natural" aspect of things. After waiting for a long 8 months I will be having my tubes done, as so closes the door to that part of my life pretty much forever. I had prepared myself mentally for this day but now that it is fast approaching, it is getting harder to come to grips with. I am happy with only having two children, but it is the whole point I guess of just knowing that this is going to be final, there is no going back now! If I didn't know that risks that would be involved in my carrying another child(to me as well as the baby) then I would for go the surgery and try for that boy that we wanted. But another *healthy* pregnancy is just out of the picture for me so therefore I have to resign myself to the fact that this is going to be the better decision in the long run. But I have also resigned myself to the fact that if I truly want that third child somewhere down this long road called life there are so many options out there for me. But right now we are content with the little family that we were blessed enought to have and that is what is gonna keep me happy for now!