FUCK!!

[busyblamemyself]

Ok so the day goes fine i go to christines house after school kick it with aj and then she comes home so we kick it. Go buy tickets to go see the new harry potter at 1201 am on friday morning and then to wescovaires practice to help them out then home to help my dad. THEN I READ ADINAHS LIVE JOURNAL!! APPERENTLY I MADE MY MIND UP ALREADY AND I HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO BE WITH HER OR SOMETHING AND THAT I WANT TO MOVE ON AND START SOMETHING WITH SOMEONE ELSE. THEN I GOT SOME OTHER GUY REPLYING TO HER TELILNG HER ABOUT HOW SHE SHOULD HAVE LISTENED TO HIM!!! WELL MAYBE SHE SHOULD HAVE!!! DONT GET WITH ME, DONT THINK ABOUT ME, FORGET ABOUT ME CUZ THATS WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN!!! IM SO FUCKEN PISSED RIGHT NOW IM SHAKING AND TRYING NOT TO SNAP AT ANY OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS!! WHAT THE FUCK I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING EXCEPT IT SUCKED WHAT SHE TOLD ME AND WHAT I THOUGHT ABOUT IT. IT REALLY FUCKEN HURT THEN SHE ACTS LIKE SHES THE ONLY ONE THAT FEELS ANYTHING. I CANT EVEN STAND TO LOOK AT HER RIGHT NOW1!! FUCK IM SO PISSED THATS THE LAST THING I NEED IS SOME MOTHER FUCKER TELLING SOMEONE SOMETHING I CARE ABOUT, ABOUT SHIT THEY DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT!! FUCK I GUESS I SHOULD FORGET ABOUT HER AND MOVE ON TO WHOEVER THE FUCK ELSE, RIGHT?? WELL I DONT KNOW I GUESS THATS THE DECISION SHE MADE FOR ME!! THIS IS WHAT I GET!!?? THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR TRYING AGAIN AND TRYING TO BE THERE AND FEELING SOMETHING MY HEART AGAIN, THATS WHAT I FUCKING GET MY HEART STEPPED ON AND KICKED AROUND BY OTHER PEOPLE I DONT EVEN KNOW!!! SHE FUCKING DID IT TO ME AGAIN!! FOOL ME ONCE SHAME ON YOU, FOOL ME TWICE SHAME ON ME. I SHOULD HAVE NEVER GIVEN HER THE CHANCE!!! FUCK IM A FUCKING IDIOT!!!WHAT TEH FUCK IS THE MATTER WTIH ME!! FUCK MY STUPID HEART!! FUCK IT WHY THE FUCK SHOULD ANY1 BUT ME HAVE IT!! THE ONLY PERSON YOU CAN DEPEND ON IS YOURSELF!! OTHER PEOPLE JUST FUCK YOU OVER EVENTUALY!!

WORD OF ADVICE: WHEN YOU FIND OUT YOU HAVE A HEART, THROW IT AWAY.

THROW IT AWAY SO NO ONE CAN HURT IT OR PLAY WITH IT.

THROW IT AWAY AND DONT EVER USE IT, CUZ YOU ALWAYS END UP GETTING
HURT IN THE END.