Motorcycle Drive By.
Yeah.
I miss home.
Alot.
I keep on trying to get ahold of Ali... but the time differce really fucks things up.
I'm taking a huge academic load, but I've been so depressed and I just haven't cared really about doing homework or anything, and if you guys remember, I'm a really big slacker.
I started smoking again.
The cowboy killers help keep me sane..
Ugh.
So yeah, last night this guy that I mentioned... fuck him. Seriously. He's too immature for my liking. I think that any guy under 20 right now is really immature, and what I want is a good, steady relationship. NOT BULLSHIT.
Also last night, my roommate who is always on the phone with her boyfriend started screaming at me for forgetting to turn off her stereo when I left the dorm. I started screaming back. I was like what the fuck is your problem? Get that fucking stick out of your ass. I hate all of this drama bullshit.
I'm really considering college in Cali. Today after school I'm meeting up with the art teacher to rebuild my portfolio because my dad trashed most of my artwork because there is a lot of nudity in it. Asshole.
I'm okay. I miss home. I wish I could have just had a simple, normal life. This seriously sucks. I like it here somewhat... but I'm just so increably tired of all of this crap.
I really really miss Ali alot, but I feel like she's moving on, and that's totally fine. She's working full time and kinda in a relationship.
I haven't really tried to call anyone else since I've been here. I call my mom daily and sometimes Perky or my grandparents, but that's about it.
And PROZAC isn't helping me at all. I want to cry.
I've never felt so alone, and I've never felt so alive.
I miss home.
Alot.
I keep on trying to get ahold of Ali... but the time differce really fucks things up.
I'm taking a huge academic load, but I've been so depressed and I just haven't cared really about doing homework or anything, and if you guys remember, I'm a really big slacker.
I started smoking again.
The cowboy killers help keep me sane..
Ugh.
So yeah, last night this guy that I mentioned... fuck him. Seriously. He's too immature for my liking. I think that any guy under 20 right now is really immature, and what I want is a good, steady relationship. NOT BULLSHIT.
Also last night, my roommate who is always on the phone with her boyfriend started screaming at me for forgetting to turn off her stereo when I left the dorm. I started screaming back. I was like what the fuck is your problem? Get that fucking stick out of your ass. I hate all of this drama bullshit.
I'm really considering college in Cali. Today after school I'm meeting up with the art teacher to rebuild my portfolio because my dad trashed most of my artwork because there is a lot of nudity in it. Asshole.
I'm okay. I miss home. I wish I could have just had a simple, normal life. This seriously sucks. I like it here somewhat... but I'm just so increably tired of all of this crap.
I really really miss Ali alot, but I feel like she's moving on, and that's totally fine. She's working full time and kinda in a relationship.
I haven't really tried to call anyone else since I've been here. I call my mom daily and sometimes Perky or my grandparents, but that's about it.
And PROZAC isn't helping me at all. I want to cry.
I've never felt so alone, and I've never felt so alive.