[OOC] Zen meme
S-so. LET'S TRY THE ZEN MEME.
Serph
A few years ago, not so long after the first Digital Devil Saga game came out... my brother decided to play it. Then he fell in love with it and made me play it too. Since I'm easily topped I accepted! And then... I also fell in love with this damn game. First, you all should know I'm a bad gamer, I don't play a lot of games and then I tend to... leave a lot of games unfinished most of the time because I get distracted with something else. BUT. But Digital Devil Saga was different. I fell in love so hard that the wait for the second game was killing me. So when we got the second game my brother played it first, because he is that evil, and I... spoiled myself and watched him play it because I wanted to know what happened. Badly. I COULDN'T WAIT. I loved DDS that much. I still do. I'm pretty sure I will never get bored of the canon or the characters, and the second game? Broke my heart several times when I finally got the chance to play it.
With that said! Serph was not my favorite character! My favorite character was Cielo, because I love that kind of characters. That's why I think our Cielo in camp is fantastic and perfect, because seriously guys, my castmates are awesome and I love them. OH RIGHT, THIS MEME WAS ABOUT ME. Uh... SO YEAH, Serph wasn't my favorite character! Actually, after a while I kind of fell in love with Jenna Angel and Sera a bit more instead and then I kind of started to love Heat a lot. BUT I NEVER PAID MUCH ATTENTION TO SERPH. For a while I thought he was a pretty hard character to RP and never gave him too much thought. Y-yeah.
BUT THEN I APPED HIM. I thought about apping Serph here randomly three months before I actually did it, but I got distracted by life and vacations and stuff, also I'm a lazy stalker so I forgot about CFUD for a while. But when I did, I rewrote the app several times because Heat is an excellent beta in like... 3-2 days and sent it in just in time. I couldn't believe I got voted in and flailed A LOT during the voting process. It was funny because I started to pay attention to Serph in general since then. I replayed random parts of DDS and DDS2 and then I watched a lot of scenes all over again in order to write the app and. Because I wanted to like... really pay attention. I knew he was kind of retarded and kind of gay for his whole tribe and kind of like... cared about them, but he was still be able to kill and devour to stay alive. I knew that because, well, I love DDS! But now that I was paying attention I realized how retarded and kind of... stupid but smart at the same time Serph was.
Frankly, I never thought I was going to be a good Serph. But. I had an awesome intropost with Heat, which I loved and it was crazy because I can't remember much of what I did there. Then I forced me into playing Serph a lot in hopes of getting myself comfortable with his voice and learn more about camp at the same time. And. At some point I started to seriously love him.
RIGHT NOW? I think he is my favorite character. I LOVE HIM. SERIOUSLY. He is a silent protagonist with a strong but subtle personality. He is retarded and do retarded things and he, in canon, guides the tribe into traps sometimes or finds items by accident and yet he can be badass and kill you quickly if you deserve it. He also can get distracted with pretty-cute things at some points in canon, instead of paying attention to more serious things1!! He is also very toppy. Sometimes. Especially when it comes to certain burly red-haired tsundere. And then the rest of his tribe is able to top him back, too.
There was a time when I felt kind of like 'kasdfhsjdfhjdsjf WHAT IF I'M DOING IT WRONG. WHAT IF I'M FAILING MY AWESOME CAST? GOD I'M SO BORING WHY I'M EVEN HERE'. Then I searched for more Serph rpers around LJ and I felt horribly disappointed. Because I couldn't find a single one I actually thought it was good enough or that, portrayed the character right. And. IT MADE ME THINK THAT MAYBE I WAS THE ONE DOING IT WRONG. I told Heat and she told me I couldn't find a good Serph rper because I was the good one. Or something similar, I'm lazy to go check logs. And. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT SOMETIMES.
Another thing that I love about Serph and almost all the Serph rpers failed to notice or recognize is... that he honestly and sincerely loves his tribe. His tribe is his most important thing, they are his family and friends. I can't see where the 'cold and calculating' thing most rpers plays with came from, honestly! That is Gale, or Sheffield. NOT SERPH. Serph is subtle sometimes and he can be serious and maybe seem kind of cold, BUT. If you pay attention, you will notice that he is not cold in any way. He can show emotions and he is a very caring cannibal. I play him with the mindset of having Heat in the final dungeon, but even so, even if you do pick the other options, you can't say seriously think he does not cares for his tribe.
Another thing I noticed and is the reason I fell in love with Serph a lot more is that he is a sad character. He is not EMO or anything, just... sad. He has this weird sadness most of the time! He is not angry and he can feel happy and smile and be honest when he says he is okay, but he has this kind of sad-nostalgic-strange feel most of the time. I'm not sure how to explain it, but. It's there. That's the way I see Serph, at least. And I think I'm right. It's kind of silly to say that I love Serph because he doesn't know a lot of normal things that everyone should know, like sex, or family or friends or... IMPORTANT THINGS a normal person should know about. Because almost all the cannibals are that way. BUT. I still love that. Also I love the way Serph is growing and learning about life in camp. I think I'm doing it right. Sometimes.
SO I LOVE PLAYING HIM. I do. I enjoy lot whenever I have the chance to dot at people. When he devours others. Or when he can be retarded and make his tribe follow him into doing retarded things! Like... getting a pet. When he is badass or makes other people realize that cannibals aren't all that bad (or that Serph is pretty weird because he is retarded that way). I love his relations in camp. A lot.
Maybe I didn't love him right away but I do now. And maybe I'm not the best player for him, since I'm not all that good. BUT. I have a great time playing him, I felt burned out from camp at times but. SERPH IS MINE. :|b
Also my castmates and people in general is always saying that I'm a good Serph (NOT PERFECT, I CAN ACCEPT I'M A GOOD SERPH, BUT NOT PERFECT, SHUP UP) so I will believe in them. \o/ SO THERE.
Fujishima Kureha
Kureha is a whole different story. BUT SERPH TIRED ME DOWN SO THIS ONE WILL BE SHORTER.
Mizushiro Setona is amazing. I've read all of her works, including Dousei Ai which I read with only Chinese scans. orz I didn't care about not understanding much anyway because, well, it was another Mizushiro Setona's manga. I knew about After School Nightmare a bit before the first volume got released and then I bought it almost immediately after it came out. Now. A lot of people get into ASN in the first place because they think it's BL but, it really isn't. I must be honest, in my case I thought it was going to have a canon threesome or something (y-yeah), and I didn't know much about the plot! But it didn't disappointed me, at all.
I loved Kureha since the very start and she became my favorite character, I didn't care much about Sou at first and Mashiro was okay, but sometimes I wanted to punch him. (Actually, I wanted to hit the three of them at some point) THEN, the story progressed and I fell in love with Kureha.
You know, what I loved about Kureha is that despite the fact she was raped at a very young age, she was able to yell and snap and say horrible things at to whoever dared to touch her without her permission, accident or not. I loved the fact it was realistic, and it wasn't just a plot device. That she was very selfish at first, that she loved Mashiro in a superficial way just to... be protected, thinking she needed to be saved in order to graduate. I loved how fucked up she was and is, still. Then Kureha started to grow more and got a lot character development until she grow out of being 'Mashiro's het'. I loved her more when she stepped out and didn't want to be protected anymore.
Then I read up to volume 7, when she is finally ready to change and to face her past. Volume seven is full of character development for her. And I adored that. She is not all that afraid of men anymore, or at least, she is comfortable around Sou. She even becomes friends with Sou! He is almost her BFFL, in a way, they can talk and bitch about Mashiro and then they can bond and have this... special friendship. YOU CAN TELL SOU CARES ABOUT KUREHA. I. I fell in love with Sou around volume six, but seven made me love both of them a lot more. THEY'RE AWESOME AS FRIENDS. I would never ship them, because I love them as friends and nothing more, but. God. I loved Sou even more in volume seven. But getting back to Kureha. She is honestly amazing, I'm a bit spoiled about her development in volume 8 and I can't wait, because, seriously. She has the potential to become badass and she is growing and she is able to speak up her mind and bitch at you if she thinks you're doing something wrong but still she is a bit more zen now, still hurt and conflicted, but she wants to change. The fact that she is willing to change and be stronger is the important part.
Her voice is back, which is awesome. I'm going to get back into playing her! Soon! I'm going to try my best and I'm ready. I know I can, I loved her threads and the little I was able to play before putting her in hiatus. If I make a mistake I will fix it and I love her so it'll be okay. I know. She is awesome and my castmate is fantastic and, seriously, After School Nightmare is very good. I WANT A SOU. After I feel comfortable enough with Kureha I will whore for him.
I think I didn't do it right and it was looooooooooooooooooong. BUT WHATEVER. |D
Serph
A few years ago, not so long after the first Digital Devil Saga game came out... my brother decided to play it. Then he fell in love with it and made me play it too. Since I'm easily topped I accepted! And then... I also fell in love with this damn game. First, you all should know I'm a bad gamer, I don't play a lot of games and then I tend to... leave a lot of games unfinished most of the time because I get distracted with something else. BUT. But Digital Devil Saga was different. I fell in love so hard that the wait for the second game was killing me. So when we got the second game my brother played it first, because he is that evil, and I... spoiled myself and watched him play it because I wanted to know what happened. Badly. I COULDN'T WAIT. I loved DDS that much. I still do. I'm pretty sure I will never get bored of the canon or the characters, and the second game? Broke my heart several times when I finally got the chance to play it.
With that said! Serph was not my favorite character! My favorite character was Cielo, because I love that kind of characters. That's why I think our Cielo in camp is fantastic and perfect, because seriously guys, my castmates are awesome and I love them. OH RIGHT, THIS MEME WAS ABOUT ME. Uh... SO YEAH, Serph wasn't my favorite character! Actually, after a while I kind of fell in love with Jenna Angel and Sera a bit more instead and then I kind of started to love Heat a lot. BUT I NEVER PAID MUCH ATTENTION TO SERPH. For a while I thought he was a pretty hard character to RP and never gave him too much thought. Y-yeah.
BUT THEN I APPED HIM. I thought about apping Serph here randomly three months before I actually did it, but I got distracted by life and vacations and stuff, also I'm a lazy stalker so I forgot about CFUD for a while. But when I did, I rewrote the app several times because Heat is an excellent beta in like... 3-2 days and sent it in just in time. I couldn't believe I got voted in and flailed A LOT during the voting process. It was funny because I started to pay attention to Serph in general since then. I replayed random parts of DDS and DDS2 and then I watched a lot of scenes all over again in order to write the app and. Because I wanted to like... really pay attention. I knew he was kind of retarded and kind of gay for his whole tribe and kind of like... cared about them, but he was still be able to kill and devour to stay alive. I knew that because, well, I love DDS! But now that I was paying attention I realized how retarded and kind of... stupid but smart at the same time Serph was.
Frankly, I never thought I was going to be a good Serph. But. I had an awesome intropost with Heat, which I loved and it was crazy because I can't remember much of what I did there. Then I forced me into playing Serph a lot in hopes of getting myself comfortable with his voice and learn more about camp at the same time. And. At some point I started to seriously love him.
RIGHT NOW? I think he is my favorite character. I LOVE HIM. SERIOUSLY. He is a silent protagonist with a strong but subtle personality. He is retarded and do retarded things and he, in canon, guides the tribe into traps sometimes or finds items by accident and yet he can be badass and kill you quickly if you deserve it. He also can get distracted with pretty-cute things at some points in canon, instead of paying attention to more serious things1!! He is also very toppy. Sometimes. Especially when it comes to certain burly red-haired tsundere. And then the rest of his tribe is able to top him back, too.
There was a time when I felt kind of like 'kasdfhsjdfhjdsjf WHAT IF I'M DOING IT WRONG. WHAT IF I'M FAILING MY AWESOME CAST? GOD I'M SO BORING WHY I'M EVEN HERE'. Then I searched for more Serph rpers around LJ and I felt horribly disappointed. Because I couldn't find a single one I actually thought it was good enough or that, portrayed the character right. And. IT MADE ME THINK THAT MAYBE I WAS THE ONE DOING IT WRONG. I told Heat and she told me I couldn't find a good Serph rper because I was the good one. Or something similar, I'm lazy to go check logs. And. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT SOMETIMES.
Another thing that I love about Serph and almost all the Serph rpers failed to notice or recognize is... that he honestly and sincerely loves his tribe. His tribe is his most important thing, they are his family and friends. I can't see where the 'cold and calculating' thing most rpers plays with came from, honestly! That is Gale, or Sheffield. NOT SERPH. Serph is subtle sometimes and he can be serious and maybe seem kind of cold, BUT. If you pay attention, you will notice that he is not cold in any way. He can show emotions and he is a very caring cannibal. I play him with the mindset of having Heat in the final dungeon, but even so, even if you do pick the other options, you can't say seriously think he does not cares for his tribe.
Another thing I noticed and is the reason I fell in love with Serph a lot more is that he is a sad character. He is not EMO or anything, just... sad. He has this weird sadness most of the time! He is not angry and he can feel happy and smile and be honest when he says he is okay, but he has this kind of sad-nostalgic-strange feel most of the time. I'm not sure how to explain it, but. It's there. That's the way I see Serph, at least. And I think I'm right. It's kind of silly to say that I love Serph because he doesn't know a lot of normal things that everyone should know, like sex, or family or friends or... IMPORTANT THINGS a normal person should know about. Because almost all the cannibals are that way. BUT. I still love that. Also I love the way Serph is growing and learning about life in camp. I think I'm doing it right. Sometimes.
SO I LOVE PLAYING HIM. I do. I enjoy lot whenever I have the chance to dot at people. When he devours others. Or when he can be retarded and make his tribe follow him into doing retarded things! Like... getting a pet. When he is badass or makes other people realize that cannibals aren't all that bad (or that Serph is pretty weird because he is retarded that way). I love his relations in camp. A lot.
Maybe I didn't love him right away but I do now. And maybe I'm not the best player for him, since I'm not all that good. BUT. I have a great time playing him, I felt burned out from camp at times but. SERPH IS MINE. :|b
Also my castmates and people in general is always saying that I'm a good Serph (NOT PERFECT, I CAN ACCEPT I'M A GOOD SERPH, BUT NOT PERFECT, SHUP UP) so I will believe in them. \o/ SO THERE.
Fujishima Kureha
Kureha is a whole different story. BUT SERPH TIRED ME DOWN SO THIS ONE WILL BE SHORTER.
Mizushiro Setona is amazing. I've read all of her works, including Dousei Ai which I read with only Chinese scans. orz I didn't care about not understanding much anyway because, well, it was another Mizushiro Setona's manga. I knew about After School Nightmare a bit before the first volume got released and then I bought it almost immediately after it came out. Now. A lot of people get into ASN in the first place because they think it's BL but, it really isn't. I must be honest, in my case I thought it was going to have a canon threesome or something (y-yeah), and I didn't know much about the plot! But it didn't disappointed me, at all.
I loved Kureha since the very start and she became my favorite character, I didn't care much about Sou at first and Mashiro was okay, but sometimes I wanted to punch him. (Actually, I wanted to hit the three of them at some point) THEN, the story progressed and I fell in love with Kureha.
You know, what I loved about Kureha is that despite the fact she was raped at a very young age, she was able to yell and snap and say horrible things at to whoever dared to touch her without her permission, accident or not. I loved the fact it was realistic, and it wasn't just a plot device. That she was very selfish at first, that she loved Mashiro in a superficial way just to... be protected, thinking she needed to be saved in order to graduate. I loved how fucked up she was and is, still. Then Kureha started to grow more and got a lot character development until she grow out of being 'Mashiro's het'. I loved her more when she stepped out and didn't want to be protected anymore.
Then I read up to volume 7, when she is finally ready to change and to face her past. Volume seven is full of character development for her. And I adored that. She is not all that afraid of men anymore, or at least, she is comfortable around Sou. She even becomes friends with Sou! He is almost her BFFL, in a way, they can talk and bitch about Mashiro and then they can bond and have this... special friendship. YOU CAN TELL SOU CARES ABOUT KUREHA. I. I fell in love with Sou around volume six, but seven made me love both of them a lot more. THEY'RE AWESOME AS FRIENDS. I would never ship them, because I love them as friends and nothing more, but. God. I loved Sou even more in volume seven. But getting back to Kureha. She is honestly amazing, I'm a bit spoiled about her development in volume 8 and I can't wait, because, seriously. She has the potential to become badass and she is growing and she is able to speak up her mind and bitch at you if she thinks you're doing something wrong but still she is a bit more zen now, still hurt and conflicted, but she wants to change. The fact that she is willing to change and be stronger is the important part.
Her voice is back, which is awesome. I'm going to get back into playing her! Soon! I'm going to try my best and I'm ready. I know I can, I loved her threads and the little I was able to play before putting her in hiatus. If I make a mistake I will fix it and I love her so it'll be okay. I know. She is awesome and my castmate is fantastic and, seriously, After School Nightmare is very good. I WANT A SOU. After I feel comfortable enough with Kureha I will whore for him.
I think I didn't do it right and it was looooooooooooooooooong. BUT WHATEVER. |D