Hmmm . . . Eve of something reading
XII The Hanged Man -- The word I always think about and remind myself of (mainly from Aeclectic Tarot) is balance. Though it doesn't seem to fit this time around reading over the symbolism again it says suspension. Like limbo, meditation, a point in time where things won't go forward nor go back. I guess it could also mean incubation, I mean for an egg to hatch it must develop it's contents first it they are to survive. Perhaps I've been worrying too much lately about my problems and future and just need to let go for the time being and focus on the here and now, that which I DO have control over.
Page of Vessels -- Is this an event or is it a person? I'm inclined to think person . . . more specifically me. I don't make it a secret that many times, both myself and the cards tend to agree that in terms of water I'm the Page of Cups, young, inexperienced, naive and sometimes hyper-sensitive but in matters of affection tends to where heart on sleeve. I guess I'm still young in that matter . . . my star chart and the cards always seem to think so.
Queen of Vessels -- Let's throw a wrench into understanding shall we? After my revelations about the Page I'm inclined to think this is more an event or thought . . . but what? Aeclectic says it has to do with developing psychic power or creating a family. Hmm . . . psychic power would be right. It seems whenever I'm turned down in the physical world I'm tend to turn towards my spirituality and mysticism again. Granted it shouldn't happen that way . . . both should flow side-by-side each other and not back and forth.
Five of Pentacles -- Hmmm . . . a broken window with five coins in it. A loss card. But a card that says the loss is minor and that it's temporary and will pass. Much like stain glass . . . though it was beautiful it was an illusion . . . both the relationship and what I had talked myself into with my auditions. I should have learned but because I talk myself into it doesn't mean it'll happen . . . in fact I may just be deluding myself. But that means keep trying and keep on keeping on to make it better and line up again.
Ten of Pentacles -- A prosperity card . . . but almost one that doesn't include luck and temporary but more an investment or longer-term stability. Aeclectic is also telling me specifically prosperity. I wonder when that will come in . . . I have been worrying about it lately.
Ten of Staves -- It always makes me wonder when two of the same number are next to each other. Okay so I'm working hard at what I do . . . but there's no shame in me delegating out things to others. Being the boss and being in charge also means taking the responsibility load because it is much greater. It's winter and I'm wanting to incubate. Things may not have been appeared to be fruitful but I think that's a false thing I'm tricking myself into thinking because I was hoping to do more. But so much has already gotten done, personally, vocally, professionally.
IX The Hermit -- This card I've grown familiar with. Like the Hanged Man that started the reading, the Hermit also means a time to spend alone and think and organize. Not to be social. I'm not here to create roots and get comfortable . . . I'm here to learn and to better myself, vocally and personally, to continue pursuit of my dream. But it takes time . . . like Spokane did . . . I didn't see the good and all the work paid off until the end of my time there. This is the same time. It's okay to be alone.
Two of Vessels -- A recognition of love. Well that answers one question I've had. I just need to find the person. Maybe I know them but maybe I don't. It'll happen when it needs to and not when I desire it to, and it will be like the romances I've been daydreaming about.
Ace of Swords -- The raw energy of the mind . . . or as the Diamond would have said The Power of Intuition. My mind is still young and just awakening itself to the many possibilities of everything intellectual. But my mind is also clearing and much more sharp than normal. Tends to happen with disappointment, the enervating urge to clear out cobwebs and doubt to hit it again.
Ten of Vessels -- The happiness card. But a permanent joy. The rainbow shows it's happy and that it need not be sought out as just the sight of a rainbow gives up hope and makes a happy. Things will be okay . . . rough but then again, is life worth living if we didn't have something to remind us that?
Page of Vessels -- Is this an event or is it a person? I'm inclined to think person . . . more specifically me. I don't make it a secret that many times, both myself and the cards tend to agree that in terms of water I'm the Page of Cups, young, inexperienced, naive and sometimes hyper-sensitive but in matters of affection tends to where heart on sleeve. I guess I'm still young in that matter . . . my star chart and the cards always seem to think so.
Queen of Vessels -- Let's throw a wrench into understanding shall we? After my revelations about the Page I'm inclined to think this is more an event or thought . . . but what? Aeclectic says it has to do with developing psychic power or creating a family. Hmm . . . psychic power would be right. It seems whenever I'm turned down in the physical world I'm tend to turn towards my spirituality and mysticism again. Granted it shouldn't happen that way . . . both should flow side-by-side each other and not back and forth.
Five of Pentacles -- Hmmm . . . a broken window with five coins in it. A loss card. But a card that says the loss is minor and that it's temporary and will pass. Much like stain glass . . . though it was beautiful it was an illusion . . . both the relationship and what I had talked myself into with my auditions. I should have learned but because I talk myself into it doesn't mean it'll happen . . . in fact I may just be deluding myself. But that means keep trying and keep on keeping on to make it better and line up again.
Ten of Pentacles -- A prosperity card . . . but almost one that doesn't include luck and temporary but more an investment or longer-term stability. Aeclectic is also telling me specifically prosperity. I wonder when that will come in . . . I have been worrying about it lately.
Ten of Staves -- It always makes me wonder when two of the same number are next to each other. Okay so I'm working hard at what I do . . . but there's no shame in me delegating out things to others. Being the boss and being in charge also means taking the responsibility load because it is much greater. It's winter and I'm wanting to incubate. Things may not have been appeared to be fruitful but I think that's a false thing I'm tricking myself into thinking because I was hoping to do more. But so much has already gotten done, personally, vocally, professionally.
IX The Hermit -- This card I've grown familiar with. Like the Hanged Man that started the reading, the Hermit also means a time to spend alone and think and organize. Not to be social. I'm not here to create roots and get comfortable . . . I'm here to learn and to better myself, vocally and personally, to continue pursuit of my dream. But it takes time . . . like Spokane did . . . I didn't see the good and all the work paid off until the end of my time there. This is the same time. It's okay to be alone.
Two of Vessels -- A recognition of love. Well that answers one question I've had. I just need to find the person. Maybe I know them but maybe I don't. It'll happen when it needs to and not when I desire it to, and it will be like the romances I've been daydreaming about.
Ace of Swords -- The raw energy of the mind . . . or as the Diamond would have said The Power of Intuition. My mind is still young and just awakening itself to the many possibilities of everything intellectual. But my mind is also clearing and much more sharp than normal. Tends to happen with disappointment, the enervating urge to clear out cobwebs and doubt to hit it again.
Ten of Vessels -- The happiness card. But a permanent joy. The rainbow shows it's happy and that it need not be sought out as just the sight of a rainbow gives up hope and makes a happy. Things will be okay . . . rough but then again, is life worth living if we didn't have something to remind us that?