What do you make of this?
Click to viewStrength -- Okay . . . be strong . . . finding my own strength. If that means I've been angry and a little irritable along the way then yes that has been happening. I mean . . . more a let's not fuck around attitude. I guess given recent instances that is true.
The Chariot -- News? But also a card meaning moving forward, and determination. The two combined I'm sure is a great force to be dealt with. Am I finally leaving my insecurities behind?
Nine of Staves -- The staircase card. Climbing and climbing and wondering if I'm ever to reach my goal. Yet it's also the final push that will get me there. Okay . . . three cards that tie together . . . I think I'm seeing the picture.
Two of Vessels -- Hmmm . . . the love card. So is my goal different from what I think it is? Someone friend, lover, whatever who "gets me."
Six of Vessels -- A reflection of the past to bring present harmony. Interesting. And yet it seems as though things are blossoming.
Eight of Staves -- mhmm . . . the card of news and movement. Connected to Strength. Seems like again time for movement. But not just a movement that needs to be forced . . . there's also mention of travel . . . does that mean my auditions will happen? I guess there's no point in asking at the moment because I've just set them in motion. We'll see
Four of Swords -- the First thing I've gotten that's not Staves, vessels or Major Arcana. A card of rest and meditation . . . getting away from it all. Hmm . . . I wonder if that would mean not worrying about the future. Basically if I just take the time and extend energy later on auditions.
So where is it all going?
Nine of Swords -- OKay so I overthink things to a point of blowing them out of proportion. How many times have I known they would work out even thought I fret about them *no answers from you Shawndra.* I'm thinking that just letting them take care of themselves by doing what I'm doing . . . focusing on now and preparing for the future . . . not fretting the future.
Death -- How many times has he shown up? There's an interesting story of being stripped to bare bones to build up again. It's like Spokane all over again. My ego was popped and my vocal technique just torn down to rebuild. It seems like each teacher has had to do that but . . . not starting over from scratch rather stripping away bad habits and buildling on solid technique. Mardene, Mari Jo, Marge, and now Patrick and Karen. They all gave me something to work with. Hence why vocal study is fascinating to me.
Three of Pentacles -- The craftsman card. Interesting that this one would signify using my trade to create more work (vocal study) but also a new physical regimen. Hmmm . . . things are looking up.
I'm still taking it all in. Sounds like things are going well.
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