im only sleeping..
ah i have a beatles song stuck in my head... probably cuz its to early for me to be awake and the song reflects on letting me fuckin sleep.... this past week has been a crazy one ... i have been spending every day going out or havin people over.. ah hh it feels damn good to see all my friends ... katie ,elizabeth,tiff,sam,kirsten,sarah. its been awhile.. i mean since i spent more than 1 day with them in a row... its kinda sad... i mean i have been chillin wit q ball , justin ,and ethan probably atleast 5 days out of the week the past 7 months and one small mishap and already we arent chillin except me and justin cuz i love my nigga.. and already im chillin with new people..... like brian and matt.. i mean they are alright but no comparison .. i always tht all the other guys were losers.. but i was wrong ... they are probably some of the most real people i hvae ever met.. they are diffrent..very different and i finally excepted it and had about 6 more of my friends to .. but im upset it seems like its all over.. and im kinda feelin sorry i ever brought more people into the click ... it use to be me and them ... then it turned into me and all of my girl friends and it just kinda seemed to fuck things up pretty bad... and i know this babiling on an on kinda gets annoying to the reader but it just kinda feels good to get all this shit of my chest so i hope u dont find me to me annoying or ignorant.. whatever word u might place but damn it feels good like when u just scream AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ... it makes things ok because eveything is off your chest .. no lies.. no hate.. no regret.. just kinda bringing closure to something that was really great.. and maybe the beginning to something better... ah n e ways.. its 4th of july what the fuck am i doing here... alright im gonna go get ready for work ... and then find a party ... and if i cant find one.. i will make one.. naturally - crespo