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i have yet to sleep. i was supposed to work but i called in sick, my boss was a huge gigantor bitch about it too, but i feel like crap. and i never call in sick, so fuck off...
i hope sleep comes soon...
last night, however, was incredible. i do not know how i would ever live without lili... she and thea are the best things to happen to my life this summer. we have hung out every day since last friday... lili, eric, micah, and i went to the idle hands/mel. owl show in nordeast. it was okay... kinda too hot. and ALOT of really strange people. but after, we all went over to matt schmidt's after-bar party where utter debauchery ensued. it is always that way with lili and i. christopher was there, it was a bit awkward. he tried to be all cute with me at first and i kinda gave him the polite brush off. but seriously what he is trying to pull? i'm over it buddy... almost completely moved on, yep. later, when lili and i were being our silly selves as usual, she tried to joke around with him and he told her to fuck off. i felt like he was watching and judging me all night. needless to say, he was acting rather bitter and jealous. i'm not sure why... what because i was having a great time just being silly and he wasn't enjoying himself at all. i don't really know what i am supposed to say or do now. i don't want things to become sour. but i also don't want to play games and feel like he is always watching what i am doing. i just want to have fun and hang out with my friends and talk with whomever i feel like talking with. i don't want to feel like he's always judging me... because frankly i don't particularly care what he thinks. he should know exactly what kind of a person i am. i don't sleep around, i don't really even kiss anyone even, i don't do drugs, i don't even smoke, i don't drink every night of the week, hell- i don't even drink more than twice a week when there are a ton of things going on, etc, etc, etc... it's just going to be unfortunate if he is going to be this way. i thought things would be different and i sure hope that they are. i would just really like to be mature about this.
i have far too many things going on in my life to deal with games. i'm honest, take it or leave it. i apologize for the rant but i needed to get it off my chest...
i talked to aaron for a long while yesterday. i cannot wait until he is home. i miss him so much it's ridiculous. oh man, i just fucking miss him so much. come home you chach-face!!!
tonight is brian kelly's going-away party. to be honest, i am really sad about it. he is one person that has always been there for me and probably always will. and now he's moving to ireland... this totally sucks. but that's life, i guess.
maybe if i go shower... and get this disgusting ash-tray smell out of my hair i will be able to sleep.
i hope sleep comes soon...
last night, however, was incredible. i do not know how i would ever live without lili... she and thea are the best things to happen to my life this summer. we have hung out every day since last friday... lili, eric, micah, and i went to the idle hands/mel. owl show in nordeast. it was okay... kinda too hot. and ALOT of really strange people. but after, we all went over to matt schmidt's after-bar party where utter debauchery ensued. it is always that way with lili and i. christopher was there, it was a bit awkward. he tried to be all cute with me at first and i kinda gave him the polite brush off. but seriously what he is trying to pull? i'm over it buddy... almost completely moved on, yep. later, when lili and i were being our silly selves as usual, she tried to joke around with him and he told her to fuck off. i felt like he was watching and judging me all night. needless to say, he was acting rather bitter and jealous. i'm not sure why... what because i was having a great time just being silly and he wasn't enjoying himself at all. i don't really know what i am supposed to say or do now. i don't want things to become sour. but i also don't want to play games and feel like he is always watching what i am doing. i just want to have fun and hang out with my friends and talk with whomever i feel like talking with. i don't want to feel like he's always judging me... because frankly i don't particularly care what he thinks. he should know exactly what kind of a person i am. i don't sleep around, i don't really even kiss anyone even, i don't do drugs, i don't even smoke, i don't drink every night of the week, hell- i don't even drink more than twice a week when there are a ton of things going on, etc, etc, etc... it's just going to be unfortunate if he is going to be this way. i thought things would be different and i sure hope that they are. i would just really like to be mature about this.
i have far too many things going on in my life to deal with games. i'm honest, take it or leave it. i apologize for the rant but i needed to get it off my chest...
i talked to aaron for a long while yesterday. i cannot wait until he is home. i miss him so much it's ridiculous. oh man, i just fucking miss him so much. come home you chach-face!!!
tonight is brian kelly's going-away party. to be honest, i am really sad about it. he is one person that has always been there for me and probably always will. and now he's moving to ireland... this totally sucks. but that's life, i guess.
maybe if i go shower... and get this disgusting ash-tray smell out of my hair i will be able to sleep.