May 16, 2005 18:34
I hate it... I dont even have time for friends. No matter how hard I try, something always comes up I always seem to neglect the people who are most important to me... I got a stern talking today, and i realize that I should change my priorities, although that seems nearly impossible. How is it that i can, and do, drop everything in the world to see my boyfriend who lives a hour away (don't get me wrong...I absolutely love spending every second I possibly can with him), yet cannot find a minute in the day to hang out with my friends who go to the same school and who are in the same classes that I am in? I dunno if it is that everybody is trying to hold onto me more now because they know that I might be leaving...? Anyway, I feel really guilty :(, what kind of friend have I become? A really shitty one! Sorry, enough complaining before i get too down on myself...I have a lot of amazing people in my life that I am very grateful for :)