Wishes...
I wish I wasn't stuck in this awful rut. The things I want, I cannot have. The things I need are more than I deserve anyway... I want to settle at least something in my life but it's all in limbo, up in the air until the last minute... a mess. In other words, I've lost control of almost every aspect of my life and it is slowly making me crazy.
I fear that maybe I am going to drive the last of the good things out of my life in the next 6 months, and then where will I be?
Certainly won't be here...
I will return "home" empty-handed and dumb-founded.
Upon which point I will visit an old friend in the hopes of fixing everything I have broken over the last six years.
It's starting to look like a better idea every time my heart breaks... and that's becoming a weekly to daily occurence.
I fear that maybe I am going to drive the last of the good things out of my life in the next 6 months, and then where will I be?
Certainly won't be here...
I will return "home" empty-handed and dumb-founded.
Upon which point I will visit an old friend in the hopes of fixing everything I have broken over the last six years.
It's starting to look like a better idea every time my heart breaks... and that's becoming a weekly to daily occurence.