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so, im in salem now. and i have to say, im having a lot more fun than i expected. meeting giselle friends and having them say "you should move down here...". ha. nice kids.
i was really scared to stay here for as long as i am. its weird that shes my best friend but i havent hung out with her like this in what......3 years. we barely even talked..not even online ever. i was scared, but now im having fun.
i dont want two weeks to come. then whitney leaves....
but however lindsay comes. but then a week later, she leaves me.
what am i going to do with myself. i have no one when theyre gone. no one..NO ONE.
why would i have even CONSIDERED moving back, when i know they will be far from me. that kills me. alot.
i know my mom is going to drive me crazy. gahhh.
why did i leave fl. i had everything really. a job a house..that i didnt have to pay rent for, a car to get around, a cell phone. sisters. my kittys. turtles. i abandoned them. im pretty much a horrible mother.
im actually scared to start school. dad told me "you know what, youre going back and you think its going to be exactly the same, but it wont be. people change. things change. its goign to be different."
hes right. what if what i thought would make me happy, doesnt. im terribly scared of failing here. dangit. whyyyy.
i was really scared to stay here for as long as i am. its weird that shes my best friend but i havent hung out with her like this in what......3 years. we barely even talked..not even online ever. i was scared, but now im having fun.
i dont want two weeks to come. then whitney leaves....
but however lindsay comes. but then a week later, she leaves me.
what am i going to do with myself. i have no one when theyre gone. no one..NO ONE.
why would i have even CONSIDERED moving back, when i know they will be far from me. that kills me. alot.
i know my mom is going to drive me crazy. gahhh.
why did i leave fl. i had everything really. a job a house..that i didnt have to pay rent for, a car to get around, a cell phone. sisters. my kittys. turtles. i abandoned them. im pretty much a horrible mother.
im actually scared to start school. dad told me "you know what, youre going back and you think its going to be exactly the same, but it wont be. people change. things change. its goign to be different."
hes right. what if what i thought would make me happy, doesnt. im terribly scared of failing here. dangit. whyyyy.