your the one that i want
wow, this has been a very slow grueling weekend.
saturday night laurin shopped with her mom and her moms friend for a very very long time, needless to say we didnt go.
i was gonna go with britty but i thought she had practice till 7:30 (but they got out early and i didnt know)
heather had no money
paolo was in san antonio
i even called julia, and we arent even really friends anymore, but we talk occasionally.. but she didnt answer
anyways, i didnt go. and i was bummed out. and i ended up having a few hour long conversation while my dad was at the hospital. we talked about my grandpa and the family, and just stuff. there were tears, but it really felt good to talk like that.
i decided i would make an effort to go to the hospital the next morning. we were only gonna stay till like 12 or 1..
we left at 7 am and went to jamba and got to the hospital at like 7:45, didnt leave till 11:30 pm. it didnt even seem like we were there all day either. everything was really just a blur. i started a 500 peice puzzle at about 9-10 and it was finally finished at about 8. random people just worked on it as they got bored. i did a lot of walking around the hospital and wow. i heard md anderson was like the best cancer center, but i didnt know people from canada came all the way there. anyways, long story short, my family decided to turn off the ventilator (makes him breath) because he was suffering. and we didnt want that. and theres no way he could ever come out of the hospital, even if he did get better. but then he started breathing.. so its just a matter of time before he runs out of breath. i did go back to his room but i stood outside and watched through teh glass. it didint even look like him, i broke down and went downstairs to the little chapel for like the 3rd time and cried my heart out. after the puzzle, we got the wahoo board out and played that 3 or 4 times then we were hungry again so we went to mcdonalds at st. luke's hospital across the street cause it was like 10:30 and the cafeteria wasnt open. so, i got an icecream cone,a nd on the way back a life-flight helicopter went right over our heads, scrared the crap out of us. lol. then i left, got home at like 12 and crashed.
today school was school. yup.