life or something like it
translucidsoul12: lets do it
im radxcore: do what?
translucidsoul12: get married
im radxcore: i dont wanna get married
translucidsoul12: :-(
translucidsoul12: porque no ?
im radxcore: because, i dunno
im radxcore: i just dont ever see myself married
im radxcore: 1. i get bored of people (esp. guys) and 2. i dont like being responsible for other people.. or having to depend on them 3. i dont like to share. and marrage is 50-50
translucidsoul12: damn ... then what do you want in life ?
translucidsoul12: not in a bad way asking
im radxcore: i want to be a writer or a journalist. i want to study psychology. i wanna travel the world and meet people. i want to go to big art museums. i want to live in italy in a loft overlooking the city. i want weird furniture in all different colors. i want blakc and white checkered floors. i want sculptures everywhere. iw ant to wake up everyday and be happy with life.
translucidsoul12: cool
translucidsoul12: but that sounds so lonely
translucidsoul12: but thats cool for you
im radxcore: actually to me, that is the most, un lonely thing you can get.
translucidsoul12: o cool
im radxcore: how can you be lonely if your always meeting people?
im radxcore: its not like i wont have friends. and i mean, i dont have a bf or anything... and im not lonely
translucidsoul12: well it sounds like youll have a great life ... but with noeone to share it with . no kids to watch grow up and all the way in italy away from your family
translucidsoul12: but thats just my thinkin because my whole life goal is to have a family
im radxcore: like i said, i dont like to share. that may sound mean, but i like to have things planned. and being married and having kids, thats a very hectic, chaotic, and spontaneous life. atleast thats what i think being in my family, cause we have never had a set plan about anything. i want to make my own money, pay for my own things, have my own place with everything that's mine. i dont want kids. i dont like kids very much, i mean, they're fun for awhile, but i dunno.. they just arent for me. and i want to travel, which means ill be able to come and see my family too..
translucidsoul12: hmm
translucidsoul12: ok
im radxcore: see me and you have very different goals in life. your goal is family. mine is career. i dont want to be one of those people who bounces from job to job trying to make ends meat. i want a stable career. one that i enjoy, where i can do all kinds of things. i want to help people.
translucidsoul12: yeah ... i want spontaniusness ... a family where i get to have ppl i love with me all the time and i get to watch my own kids grow up .... its alot of responsability but thats what i want
im radxcore: i like responsibility. but i only want to be responsible for myself. i dont want to be responsible for a kid. and i dont need a guy to help me out in life. im more of an independent person. and i will have people who i love with me all the time, i have friends, and thats all i need.
im radxcore: these days, its hard to know who you can trust. and i dont want to be married and then find out i cant trust my husband.. and find out he cheated on me. and get divorced... no thanks.
translucidsoul12: yeah
translucidsoul12: i understand
im radxcore: your life sounds great, for you. but not for me.
translucidsoul12: cool
translucidsoul12: ok
i just had this conversation with arnold, and i just realised all this stuff. i mean, i was just typing... and it all came out like it was on the tip of my tounge. i think its funny that most adults think we teenagers dont care about the future or anything, but yet, i know what i want in life. and im happy with it.