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Last couple days have been...pleasent. I contemplate things so much, should i or shouldnt i, what if, those kinda things. I try and take everything into consideration and make the best decision i can, but it always ends up getting fucked up.
i promise myslef a lot of things, like that i will quit smoking or try to be nicer, but i never do them. i think i need to start putting myself first. i always do everything for everyone and in turn sacrifice things that i want. but i dont blame anyone for that at all. if i want to give, then its my flaw, not thiers and i cant blame people for taking what is given
im rambling
i promise myslef a lot of things, like that i will quit smoking or try to be nicer, but i never do them. i think i need to start putting myself first. i always do everything for everyone and in turn sacrifice things that i want. but i dont blame anyone for that at all. if i want to give, then its my flaw, not thiers and i cant blame people for taking what is given
im rambling