tired
This is the first time I've been home in a while...like 4 days, and I never thought I would say this, especially with how things have been on the home front lately., but it's good to be home. I got to do some laundry(including my horribly weird smelling sweatshirt). I ate some dinner with dad. Which was a surprisingly painless experience. and went to a meeting. I got home to find my two Godspeed! You Black Emperor albums had arrived. I drove to my meeting listening to Moya off of Slow Riot For New Zero Kanada, and it was so good. Something about that band that makes my spine tingle. Listening to it while driving on a dark cloudy evening was perfect. I think that I've decided I like them as much as I like Tom Waits. Which for anyone who knows me thats big! I almost want to get back in my car and drive some more, but gas prices are ridiculous.
I'm weirdly not hungry considering I only ate once today. I need to go to the dentist soon; so, it's a good thing that my dad is putting me on the plan finally. I also feel that it's necessary that I go for a physical soon. I haven't had one in years. I also have alot of phone calls to make regarding hospital bills and insurance; which blows, I hate having to do this.
Peanut chew!
I read "Perv-A Love Story" last week, and while it was kind of disturbing to me, I really liked it. I need to read more, and I need to read for knowledge rather than pleasure more. I also need to write alot more. I've realized that journaling really helps me put things into perspective.
I have several people who I need to get in touch with soon. who I miss. if your one of these people then hang on it's on its way.
I have such a hard time asserting myself. I always fear the it will end in rejection. That taking care of myself by saying, "hey this doesn't work for me" will end in me being abandoned. Recent events and discussions are starting to dispel this fear, and with that I need to try to eat something and go to bed. Work at 5am!
I'm weirdly not hungry considering I only ate once today. I need to go to the dentist soon; so, it's a good thing that my dad is putting me on the plan finally. I also feel that it's necessary that I go for a physical soon. I haven't had one in years. I also have alot of phone calls to make regarding hospital bills and insurance; which blows, I hate having to do this.
Peanut chew!
I read "Perv-A Love Story" last week, and while it was kind of disturbing to me, I really liked it. I need to read more, and I need to read for knowledge rather than pleasure more. I also need to write alot more. I've realized that journaling really helps me put things into perspective.
I have several people who I need to get in touch with soon. who I miss. if your one of these people then hang on it's on its way.
I have such a hard time asserting myself. I always fear the it will end in rejection. That taking care of myself by saying, "hey this doesn't work for me" will end in me being abandoned. Recent events and discussions are starting to dispel this fear, and with that I need to try to eat something and go to bed. Work at 5am!